Saturday, August 05, 2006 @ 9:45 AM
HEY..haha..finally all the impt crs, mkt and ar are over..BUT there is always a but like wess always says..CULINARY ORAL ASSESSMENT. on monday..-.-''
yea den followed by exams and all alrd..so fast so furious wahaha..
de presentation was bad..hais..haha..dunno waht to say..and i thought i finally could speak at least properly after the marketing presentation..i thought i no longer tongue-tied..and the night before i actually studied de whole report..because christina said it was better to play safe..in the end we only needed to do our part..its so..i dunno hw to say..
quite upset with it..not because of anyone..its jus tt if you tell me to focus on my part..i will be more prepared. the truth behind why i tongue-tied was because seriously i dunno what am i toking about..completely unprepared.
totally upset with it..and i dun think anyone can understand my feelings at that moment of time..because they tot it was not a big deal to prepare for presentation as it comes naturally. yea. i agree. some people are borned with those talents. haha..but for me sadly..i dun. and i also dun wish to..
yea..and i dun need anyone to understand also la..haha..
but at that moment when i was hit by this reality..i really hope that i would hear some encouraging words. or none at all. not those comments.
ya. especially from ur good friends..lols..and i was really glad that yanwan said we did well..hahaa..was really happy..even though she might lie at that moment..i still wanted to believe it..
it was sad when you know ur standard was the lousiest in class..do u guys know the feeling?
yea..i tried hard to improve..i practised real hard for marketing presentation after the disaster (BUS ETQ)..was really afraid to repeat the same mistake again..im not getting paranoid..haha..im jus getting phobia..LOLS..and i really need encouragement..and that was waht i really thought..
yea..i dunno why suddenly i feel that i dun joke with my classmates anymore..i mean seldom now..and i dunno why suddenly i lost myself in the mid of the lessons...
who am i? suddenly im not sure of what i want..to be serious in class..no nonsense..focus on the work...
OR be Mad and enthu about everything and jus cant stop toking and start concentrating in class...
i dunno..seriously..
i dunno why its so hard to get along with classmates these days..i dunno why i dun say hi to ppl..or even my ex classmates sometimes..or maybe im alrd dao in the past..in the sec sch days..and the habit kept coming back to haunt me..lols...
i seriously dunno..and qiudan said..im in service line the most i should be socialble..lols..i also wish to..but dunno why jus cant think of anything to tok to..hahaa..maybe they are not my clicks??
not sure..hahaa..i think im crapping again jus ignore me ba..lols...
hais..i jus wish to return to myself..