Monday, August 14, 2006 @ 9:48 PM
im trying to put on a smile. but im trying hard. haha.i try to talk.but nth comes to my mind.i stoned.seeing everyone except me talking.haa.suddenly i felt as if i was out of the world.haha.werid.sometimes.i dunno why, i cant joke anymore. haha.its werid. i dunno why.im not myself.haha.werid. and really it is bothering me so greatly. im trapped.in de deep hole.
yea. i try to think on the positive side. but de more i feel..im forcing myself.
haha.i dun need anybody to understand this me. haha. because it will be funny. haha.yet i need someone to understand. im not always de joker.de lamer.de whatever. i need to be cherished.
can you hear that?it takes two hands to clap. and why am i always the one who tolerate all ur nonsense. am i inviting trouble. i think seriously i am.
haha.its a cycle. sadness always comes after happiness. so to let us know what happiness really means. i need time to digest it. wish me luck. haha.
leftovers.