featuring: over de rainbow.
credits to sooo
i went movie and pool. haha. met up with alex..din really contact him for v long. haha. and its miracle tt we can still talk. i mean tts no werid silence. yea. and i was quite guilty haha cos i din celebrate my godpas bdae yesterday. cos i din turn up for SA meeting. cos i sucks.
been spending money like water these few days. felt quite bad.
haha. yea. v happy to go out with snake friend..haha.
hmm i dunno why i gt this habit. saying nvm. means i mind. haha. 'haha' doesnt mean im alright.
sometimes i dun like. but i mus say nice things.
i dunno.
i hate tt me. hahaa.
yea. i hate my father asking me to slp. asking me to eat. when i dun wan to. yet i mus do so.
i hate to go out with someone i dun like. bt i must.
i hate to be ordered. yet i mus follow.
i thought i had chned. i have become better. more considerate. haha. more submissive?
i dunno. haha cos no one ever notices. until i stop doing.
haha. idiot.
sometimes i really feel v down.
but still. i mus act as if nothing happens.
haha. its werid saying hw i feel. because i tend to hurt ppl if i do tt. once again. all my feelings are all bottled inside. i dunno.
sometimes i wish ppl can appreciate me more. haha.