never wanna hear you say goodbye.

haha. not been slping well.
for i-dunno-why
hahah yea i think its because im too free hahaha. ( but im not free!! i have been badmintoning and singing at cc!! hahaha!! )
and im having nightmares these days. why!!! i really dunno and i jus wanna have a good night sleep and get rid of my dark eye circles. hahha.

yeas. last night. he talked to me on msn. and it was regarding something that i had done before. haha. wow sounds complicated eh. but sometimes i really hope to lead a simpler life.
but it really tempted me. 20k a mth. gawd. are you tempted?

seriously. i am.
hahaha. before that i thought of what i had did in the past.
seeing him in bsc really reminded me of the past. suddenly. i felt so guilty.
betrayed.
endless promises.
secrets.

and all.
when i have nth to do.
i think of my friends.
ahhah!
friends whom were close to me in the past. sometimes i even went to view their friendster or blog to know hw have they been. yeas omg i think im like a fool. ahha.

pondering about the past. is no use. yes. im reminding myself.
but seeing him working with him in school really reminds me of all these unfulfilled promises that i had given. and others had given me.

i dunno whether should i still continue in sch events.
everytime i would see him in the same grp.

fated? lols.

i dunno. and i know maybe it meant nth to him alrd.
but to me its not~~ hw can i simply forget everything?

i jus cant.
after a yr at TAS. i realised i still cant.
i wonder what will happen if i still go back to the same place again.
this time they are not with me. and i might be earning much more.

i jus cant go without them.
if not i wonder if im a human afterall.

haha. complicated life i have eh.
or maybe i complicate it?

ahaha. so i should learn to be contented.
hahahah. yet not too over la. hahah. with no higher expectation there will be no room for improvement. right?

yeas. so its really hard to be a human being. LOL.
there is only a line between love and hatred. a line between right and wrong.
gawd.
hahahah..so its better for human beings to be busier. so we wun think so much HAHA.
but im BUSY!! hahahah!.

okies. haha. end of story.
conclusion
should not go back to the old route again.
maybe joining sch events is not a bad things afterall.
maybe things will work out even better.
(;

okies. i will be stronger this time. and not give in to greed. ahah!!
no la.
i realised it is more important to give care and concern to our parents instead of giving money. although money is IMPORTANT. hahaha. but i think they will be happy when they see us being healthy and doing fine in our life right. hhahaha. okok im crapping ahha!

okies we should live life to our fullest so that we wont let them down!! (;
aja aja fighting!! baxia~!

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