can i don grow up
Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 12:08 PM
as we grow up responsibility increases.
a few days back my mum was talking to me about her medical expenses and all those random stuff.
i wondered when is the last time we have a decent chat. seriously, deep inside i was afraid of facing the reality. im still running away from it. it doesnt go away when i don think of it. so im learning to face it. i think im doing better now. haha. my mum said eating alone is not as enjoyable as eating with people around. yeah. i know what she means. sometimes you know it but ur mind don usually coordinate well with ur actions.
my godma says she loves me staying at her house and its no trouble at all, when i said i might be a nuisance sometimes/all the time. haha. i dunno why i suddenly feel like crying when she said all those stuff to me. am i someone that emotional omg!
maybe its been so long since someone told me they like me to be around and they want me to be around. haha.
working over the weekends and i see alot of familar faces haha. its nice to meet people. i like to laugh at ppl. ahhaha. i know i will get karma ppl will laugh at me too. hahah. its okie, jus laugh at me alright.
i persuaded qiudan to play the 'dare' with me. AHhaa. i dare her to walk up to the super narrow staircase and give out flyers. hahhaha. she did it. and so did i. but the kuku thing was, the passer-bys who walked up the stairs only laughed at me!! LOL.
hahaha its okies i was busy laughing also hahahaaa the guy coming down took the flyer from me and he didnt laugh. ahaha okies thanks. haaha.
ya i enjoyed playing. hahahaa. i think its because of that friday-with-sockhui that rekindle my passion for this kinda stuff.
hahhahahaha.
i guess my ex bf would think that im crazy and childish. but now i don need to think about all this stuff anymore.
hahaa lifes like this, you don need to be so rigid and do things that are right doesnt make you happier anyway.
yaa. lol maybe i should be more firm to my own thinking. haha i guess i listen too much from ppl. sometimes it gets my confidence lower each time.
yeah thats saddening.
sigh. oh ya i saw nat!! hahaha hes the same when hes on tv. lol.
some guys are really nice, they ask their gf and friends to help us to take the flyers. now den i realised they are nice. lol! i don mean those who din take are not nice; they might think that they don need it and have to throw it into the bin anyway.
hahaha hw come i know? because im one of them
LOL. but after that week after i distribute those flyers, i began taking all the flyers from others. HAHA. you ought to believe in karma sometimes. hahaha.
alright. im facing problems with POA and its gettingon my nerves. arg i got to learn eye make up because of this job. dots. why do ppl invent such things. its troubling me!! lol/
not in a good mood these few days because of all the pressure im facing. from work, lack of slp, the fact that i haven got a full time job and blar.
sigh. can i don grow up?