i r e a l i s ed. its n e v e r eas.y to f o rget.
anyway out with peijiao . haha. peijiao low! i still feel werid when ppl start calling my full name. for one moment i dunno they are calling me. lol. qiutin quek! ah peijiao low i feel like pulling your hair when you start calling me that hahah! but ok la im getting used to it. haha im bad at adapting i guess? LOL cos i cant tak e it immediately. i need to digest. ahhaa.
went job hunting yea. im forever waiting for replies. .
its ok because im getting used to waiting. haha.
i have been waiting for slmost all my friends during each outing since the start of 2008. is it a curse or wat?
lyna - waited . sockhui - no . shane - waited . peijiao - waited . tzehui - waited .
beneath the smiles.
i hate to be abnormal, i tried to be normal.
maybe i can pretend that nothing happened.
i kept consoling myself, but at the en d of the day i still feel l o st.
its easier to say than done? ya. i guess we can console others but
ourselves.
its been a week 7 days, and i haven gotten any reply.
i tried not to think but it jus came to my mind. what am i supposed to do. i really dunnno.
i tried all means not to remember, but it jus poped out now and then.
it slowly becomes a part of my life and i wonder when will i be freed.
lol. really don wish to be emo. hahaa. don wish to be truthful to my own feelings. because, im not used to it. ahha.
im feeling even worse than i thought.
i hate myself saying im c r e s t f a l l en.
im starting to be afraid.