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2008-05-13T11:19:00.002+08:00

hey! haha. decided for a change. yup this time not the layout but the address.

moving on to orangesoddaa.livejournal! ;)

oh my i will miss my blogspot!! and those memories written here!

2008-05-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

这些日子以来
偶尔会想起你的爱
面对这回忆依然还是温暖

life is full of unpredictable.s

cherish. cherish. cherish.

i feel like slapping myself.

YAM HTXIS

2008-05-06T12:39:00.006+08:00

SIXTH . MAY

yeah hey. i like my new layout! HAHa. curly handwriting curly fries!! i miss onion rings!

haha well i have nothing to do so ya, changed layout again. its a different experience whenever you change layout. hahaha. you can try changing it everyday, it makes you feel that each day is special!

hahaha. okie im jus getting boredd thats why. lol. going out YAY gg back TP! hahaha boy scouting!!! HAHA. our new hobby. hahahaa. no la jus kidding!

yup so im the nanny of the day! its fun playing with michael! hahaha we went guessing which is de hole the ball come out from. hahaha. you will know what i mean if you play before!

oh we were at jurong bird park. AHHA. the granny is super enthu when comes to phototaking. oh yaya, you know what, the granny speaks mandarin to them!!!

and i really need to brush up my english, kids nowadays speak much much fluent english than us! hahah. got one time, i translated directly from chinese.

'last second hole'
AHHA. then he was like, 'oh the second last hole.'

'there, your nanny!'
he went 'huh'.
then i realised its 'granny'.

-_- kill me.!!

2008-05-06T00:24:00.002+08:00

fifthMAY.
i realised my new blogskin don have any date!!

1st time!!

my work is getting better i get along pretty well with them alrd ;) im so happy;)

although its not perfect at least i tried my best. im still trying.

there re many things taht i wanna do, wanna learn. i wont waste my time away jus like tt. yeah haha.

i wanna learn yoga, learn dancing, go pub, listen to liveband, wanna have a taste of de vibrant nightlife...etc.

new things. a change. is good.
maybe. haha. GO!!
you ve to try before u get white-hair!!!
HAHA.

2008-05-02T20:52:00.010+08:00

2nd may.

dark eye circles. wider smiles.

the happiest part of today is meeting henry, eddy, charlie and james.;)

the colours of their golf balls are denoted by the colors used. haha.

2nd part - the last customer i demonstrated to was a boy with curly black hair. hes super funny!! i asked for his name and he was saying something like 'arburan ran rannnn ennnn' wow.

really stunned me, i tot my english is that bad or something. got this name wan?? Hahha.

yup so the accompany adult was stunned too!! HAHAH. den he was saying, 'Alex, wahts your name tell the lady...' den i realised his name is totally nt linked to waht he jus said. ahaha.

den i was like, oh Alex.. den i mus be stupid because that guy mus have mentioned 'alex' for a few times before we start to introduce ourselves. haha im like so kuku.

i guess im too hungry. lol. yaa so i began to explain the game rules and it was only then that i realised how cute is that guy. hes really good-looking!!! i mean the acc parent. he's angmoh. he seems like the actor stepping out of the magazine or something.

lol. the funniest part was, after i explained, we noticed that alex got this stun look. hahahahah. practically staring into the space. LOL.

'alex is stunned', i said.

(laughss laughs) yaa i guess so! he looks stunned', that guy replied.

HAHA den we burst out laughing looking at him. hAHHAHA its so funny la we jus couldnt stop laughing. he was practically stoning there.. and we have no idea why!

omg i look so shag. haha heres eddy!! hes shy.

thats james and charlie (behind)

they are super hyper, running here and there. but at least they listen to me. hahah. gosh i become mummy for the day. ohno!!

the boy in red is henry, he is the most senior of all, thats probably why he is more naggy HAHA. he keeps telling the boys not to do this and that. hahahah he is de most sensible one!

hes definitely a great help!

ahha eddy looking at the orange ball (henry;s ball) in the moving SMRT train.

hes ever ready for the camera!

guess whats colour is his ball? his fav color is PURPLE. omg!!! haha.

captivated by the mechanism.

okies i didnt upload the picture i took with lyna cos i really really look like obasan. shit. haha. 85dinner. i like the dishes we ordered, both spicy and hot;) haha though the weather is super hot these days. and de dinner was alright except for the last part! haha. and yeah lyna sent me home! HAHA. okie la not really home but she walked me to de busstop near my house. HAAH. like so funny.

on my way to meet huimin last sunday! yay! i by pass tp!! hahaa. this uncle turned to look at me after i took this picture. he mus have thought i was a stalker taking his picture!! oh my!! NO uncle no.!

;)

de school days.

aha huimin!! i couldnt find her at 1st. ahhaha.

haha don look like ah ma right!!

2008-04-30T22:38:00.006+08:00

yst went braddell to check my back.

i waited for around 45 mins before they were open. crazy right?? on top of that, they didnt pick up my callssssssssss. dunno hw many calls i made. driving me nuts.

travelling from tamp to braddell. nt to forget i have no mp3 only hp. so i started smsing ppl. sending those random sms that i never tot i would send until yst.

i really miss my friends. yes, i do.

however as time passes by, the distance becomes wider and wider ..and slowly we drifted apart. and you know the ending.

yup. thats hw fragile friendship is.

yaa. haha. yst, i scrolled down my hp list. gosh. really have no idea who to tok to. dunno who is free because nobody seems to be free.

so i jus smsed tzehui and lyna to call me. i was so so glad that they called back. at least i know im not abandoned.

Miraculously, after talking to tzehui, de clinic opened.!

hahaa. yaa so pain man. i was screaming and screaming if you know me i hardly scream. even at home, i don. haha. yaa. before i could take a breath, it came again, suffocating me.

yup i felt my legs twisted like dunno waht. you know those kungfu fighters always like to crack ppl;s bones? yaaa i finally experienced it. its not the 1st time.

honestly, this time was not as bad as last time. but its still making me yelling like mad.

ppl never know how much you care, until you take some action? Haha. i know theres a saying but i cant remember wahts it.

lol. yup i truly agreed. so, tag me sms me call me if you wanna care for me okie! HAHA. if not i'll never know! ok maybe you can email me too! though i never really check my mail. HAHA. maybe i will start checking if u send LOL.

2008-04-29T11:50:00.006+08:00

CHEERS to our friendship,
bestie! ;)
you re the best haha!

heyhey!! i heart you! ;) LOL. dun puke!!

i shall not say further! ahha!

our lunch,

dunno why i always pick the same dish again and again.

hahaha im so LOYAL!

our dinner,

yay!! the seafood is very fresh, the bacon is not too saltish its PERFECT. ;)

thumbs up. though we shouldnt have chosen tomato cream.

we aint cream eater. ahhah.

you can see qiudan eyeing for her bacon pasta at right-hand-corner!

oh ya,

we went expo to watch the planes. OMG.

one word to describe the feeling of standing right below the flying plane,

WOW.!

its cool man. the plane is so so so CLOSE to us.

1st time in my life, that i experienced standing that close to a flying plane.

for one moment i tot im gg to touch the plane with my arms raised.

ahhahah.!

THANKS TO YILONG.

but we never took any pictures!! wasted!! hahaha. its okie we shall go next time again alright!!

my fav plane is our own SIA plane.!

remember to go expo to experience it urself!

mac don al loves. hhaha i heart my sis too! though we quarrel quite often. hahah.

2008-04-29T00:06:00.005+08:00

i l l

be . filled with.

happy thoughts. i will constantly remind myself to be happy.

things that make me smile from within -

a kid lets me see her drawing. hahah seriously i dunno what she had drawn and seriously another reason why i kept staring at the picture was that I was finding a word to describe the picture.

my brain juice used up, i finally spoke, 'hmm whats this?'

o.m.g.

i cant believe i actually said taht. its like im pouring cold water. i should know what shes drawn!!

and her mum was asking her again, as though she cant hear what i jus said.

so her mum helped to reply, 'its a face' in kiddish tone.

actually i know its a face but it doesnt look like a face cos the nose mouth and eyes are very far apart. haahha. yaaa.

den i really have no idea hw to end the conversation!! but they are waiting for my reply. i know the kid was waiting for me to say something nice or even praise her.

'its cute'. i kept smiling and smiling hoping that what i said is sincerely true. though its a really stupid comment. seriously i dunno which part of the picture is cute.

arg..........im stupid. i hope shes happy hearing taht though haha.

before they left, their mum urged them to say goodbye to jiejie hahah yeah! ;) they are cute and pretty kids;)

yes, thats the thing abt my job, i love making ppl smile!;)

once, someone told me he doesnt like me to lie..

yea, but he never understands the reason why i do so.

i guess its really difficult to know me.

because sometimes even I, don really know myself.

2008-04-25T12:55:00.004+08:00

have you ever feel this way before.

i cant keep bottling those feelings up im all stressed up. pardon my emo entries because i really have no better outlets to relieve those tightup feelings.

warning: don continue to read unless you prepare to read a whole chunk of incoherent writings. im still feeling dizzy.

yesterday was the last day for the australian fair at taka. yes i made it through. Mixed feelings. On one hand, I slapped myself for being angry/disappointed at her. On the other hand, I finally realised how ppl can be so self-centered and irresponsible.

I have no choice but to work. Supposedly, i work today but it was cancelled i guess since there was no news about the work. Oh man, stop giving me those last-min stuff.

have you ever feel that you are all alone?
im so afraid. im so so afraid.

the closing part was the worse thing of all.
i did everything by myself when others have at least 2 to 3 person who helped them out.
i dunno how to say what to say. but its a terrible feeling when you are on your own and everyone is watching and nobody is helping.

i began tearing off the price tags. fortunately i had took them off earlier. despite that i was the last to go because Im the only one who was doing everything myself. Maybe it seemed easy for you to put all the stock into the respective boxes, stock take, do the cashier closing, trying to find boxes and stuff to contain the items, and so on.

but i realised why others need more than 1 person. besides those manual work, human need moral support.

you cant imagine the stress when everyone is moving so fast and you are all alone, uncertain whether you will make it through by yourself.

you cant imagine how stressed i am to fight the fear im facing.

i guess i was the only one who perspired. lol. i dun even know until aunty honey told me. they were so angry with my boss. My boss, was the only supplier who was not present. I, was the only one who did everything except moving the stuff to the lorry.

i am really happy because i know that i have become stronger and theres nothing i cant do by myself. that includes, walking up to the empty floor where there is no single soul around, searching for the stupid loading bay.

those slack security were so kuku la. they told me the wrong direction deliberately. How do I know? Because i got Dennis over there, Den i realised waht they told me was wrong. It made me walk up and down the stagnant escalator in the dark.

Reason why? jus because my co's delivery man was hot tempered and quarrelled with them. WTH? cant they be more professional or something? It was alrd 11pm and i was Stucked At TAKA jus because they were not professional. I even saw a guy eating MACDONALD NUGGETS and USED HIS DIRTY HANDS TO TOUCH THE CONSIGNMENT PAPER WE HANDED TO HIM.

oh. i feel like boxing him up down left right.

but it also taught us a lesson, NEVER ever fight with security you will never win because they are the kings when taka closed for business. even dennis has no say. so you think. better stocked up some nuggets if you wanna get out of the bloody place faster.

yes i was the last.

its like a nightmare to me. it kept flashing in my mind. and i couldnt slp despite my exhausted body. my back was super achy because i had to bend all the time when i was doing the stock.

I don look good at all. not at all without the makeup adn with spects on. and those stress and all. gawd i got dark eye circles!

and my eyecandy saw the worst side of me. ;(
so sad. but thats another case la. well i was glad at least at least there was someone, dennis was a great help. or else we could jus camp over there. You know what the security said? HE SAID HE WANTED TO COUNT THE STOCK BEFORE WE CAN GO. AND HE SIMPLY HAD NO INTENTION TO COUNT THEM.

so tell me how can we go home?

so we jus ignored him and dennis asked me to go home 1st.

yeah so having eyecandy doesnt help. they will be the one to go if when such thing happen.

i took a look at my watch 1125pm.

I shouldnt be bothered by her feelings. I wonder, whats true?
You can jus leave me alone to handle all these craps.

earlier i was still thinking oh man, i must be so bad to give you cold replies and all.

oh my, I felt so foolish. You were happily shopping and all and I was there Clearing ALL THOSE MESS. i cant see any link.

From teh start, I have to help to pick up those pieces. yes. so at the end of the day, I was still the only one who cleared up those stuff.

whats happening. I still think i din care abt your feelings. Oh, which is which?

working from 930am to 930pm was no joke. plus theres no break. unless you count those 10mins break in. extended hours 930 to 1030 or even later for consecutively two days. and friday and sat are the busiest days of all.

i felt like a fool. Why am i so softhearted. what for I took on the responsibility which is not mine in the first place.

BAck home, i have to listen my dads scoldings. abt those stuff. JUST NOW, 5mins ago, I raised my voice and he was unhappy. STOP TALKING TO ME. CAN YOU SEE IM ALRD DYING.

so he kept asking me to do things that i don wan. I HATE IT.

he refused to pick up the phone after that. WTH. he thought its mine.
AND guess what, he went speechless when the call was for him.

WTH?

cant you take a pity on me?

too many decisions to be made

2008-04-23T12:06:00.003+08:00

when the stress comes
they come all together.

i feel weak all over.
i could really feel my health getting worse. day by day.
yeah. today i was woken up by my bro at 8plusam. gawd. there goes my beauty sleep.

so everyday i have not enough slp. i really wonder am i strong enough to work 6day week 9hrs a day. seriously, yesterday was kinda one of my worse days at taka. though i din show it, i could feel my body giving way.

when i was walking to mrt station in the morning, my mind didnt seem to coordinate with my body. i pushed myself to walk faster but to no avail. i felt as though i was gg to faint or something. yea so i was late for work. and i was the last one who reported to work.

didnt manage to have my dinner again.

on the happy note, gt one boyboy very cute! 2&half yrs old. hahahaa he went hiding beneath the table so that i couldnt see him. ahhaha. he likes my apple snack! and yeah he said thankyou jiejie luckily its not aunty huh. hahaha. you have to see his face hes really cute.!

i like kids who are shy shy yet playful. hahaha.

gt one girlgirl very smart also. she gave back the baby rice to her mum after she tasted it. its blend but crispy. hahaha. i think if i were her i might jus throw the baby rice into the promoter's face ahhaa it is not tasty at all.

haah so they are very obedient kids.

yesterday was my 1st time eating the rice cakes. i was forced to. of cos. haha. but after a while i realised its not that bad. quite nice actually!! haha.

turning on my com, i saw pj comment. setting goals. seriously, i have no goal anymore. because everything is uncertain to me. some advised me to study uni. arg. really really. im all messed up.

seriously i was angry with myself, because even I, dunno waht i want.

thats the worse feeling that i dun wish to get.

whats my career path. can i don think of it? i haven even started my full time job. How am i suppose to know whether i like it or not. honey aunty was saying simply, quit if you think its not suitable den find another one.

yeah yeah. thanks man. thats what i wanna hear. haha.

why am i stressing myself so much. i haven even tried. mistakes don mean that i will fail all the way right? i tot they make us grow? LOL. okie i know its lame.

besides feeling edgy towards de new job, there is something else.

its like suddenly i was being shot by so many things at one time.
im trying to handle. pls i need more support.

later still have to go down to sign the employment letter abit waste time becayuse after that will have to head to the library, i hope the book is not overdued, then to my aunty house.

so tell me, what can i do with 1 off day?

2008-04-21T11:53:00.002+08:00

i hide them so that you cant see.
but that doesnt mean the heartache will go away.

i dunno why i miss you even more these few days. no matter how exhausted i am, in fact the more vulnerable i am, the more i think of you.

seeing you online doesnt help, it just makes me even harder to forget abt you.

would you ever see?
i hope you re not. since you have gone back to your routine life.

i tried all means to distract myself; keeping myself busy with work, meeting up with friends, trying not to stay alone, having more eyecandies but they don seem to help.

haha maybe having more lollipops help. Haha. gawd im becoming sillier (silly-er)

2008-04-20T00:15:00.002+08:00

im lost.
in you? lol.

im choosing my career path nervously//

sidetracked a bit, talk about happy stuff;

1) oh ya i saw my big big eyecandyyesterday well its my sis BIGBIG eyecandy . so you can differentiate the degree of liking with the size of the word 'big'.

2) i got a free 'GOGO' hotdog;) yay i used $10 for both days (lunch and dinner).

3) haha. i drank 1.5L of water for the both working days. big accomplishment because its one step nearer to getting healthier.

4) i sold one milk formula HAHA its like finally.

5) i can make babies smile. AHHA. omg i dunno i can do that.

6) i finished closing faster and faster. haha. u know hw much i wanna get home.

7) i can walk super fast, practically overtaking everyone ahead of me. i know its abit crazy but im really rushing for time!

8) i got to see my small eyecandy. hahah. aaaa. though i need a binocular.

9) i managed to save money by walking back home despite my achy legs.

10) finally i got my own time. ;) thinking of not working tml makes me happier haha.

i hope . i can . someone could . ....

2008-04-17T12:27:00.003+08:00

wasted my time for checking out the company because i don think i would like the job. lol.
sigh. its okies. shall see.

yesterday was my 1st time seeing him on msn after so long. i went stoned and i practically sticked my eyes on the monitor when i saw his nick. i thought i was dreaming because i jus woke up from a nap.

i worked half day yesterday and i was really glad that i finally got some time off to send some resumes and listen to some music. since then, i had never listened to my mp3.

i fell asleep immediately the moment i landed myself on the bed. i didnt expect that i would fall asleep because i was facing downwards, which was not a very comfortable position.

it was really a good sleep for me after so long. i woke up and realised its 730pm. i couldnt even remember what time i slept. but i guess i had only slept for half an hour lol cos i was still browsing through jobsdb at 6plus/.

and it was never my style to leave the monitor on because i wont waste electricity LOL. i was really tiredd/

everytime im online i would scroll down the msn list for his nick. at least i know how hes been doing. ya i saw his nick and i roughly know how hes getting because he always writes a little description of his current situation.

delon smsed me earlier that morning and honestly i was stunned by his changes. he became more sensible and no more computer games for him. hahaa.

yep i was really glad for him. ;)

i had a love test last week on facebook HAHA i know its childish but don mind trying since my sis said its really true! it said i fall in love quickly but i stay in love forever. LOL. forever? its something that i don believe in. and in this century, theres nothing like forever.

hah. enlighten me.

2008-04-14T12:35:00.007+08:00

becoming like a
___________.
(fill in the blank)

i got a new notebook hahaha qiudan reminded me to put the photo of the month into that. so when we flipped through it again we will get back all de memories.

im feeling so slpy lol. i might not know what im typing now. but i need to type in order not to feel slpy. hahaha./ later im having an interview was really stunned when i saw the email. .

SPLASH AT PLAYGROUND. woohoo. it sounds so exciting and im excited. YEAH. it really suits me man haha i would love working outdoors if its neccessary!

yeah i like to run about instead of sitting under the air con the whole day. meeting with new people makes me come alive because its a brand new experience everytime.

in addition, i work better when no one is watching me when im not tied down with those formal regulations. lol ya. dunno what the qns will be. OMG. im afraid i might turn to stoned mode when i reach there! NO!!!

okie let me train my brain now...

met a lot of cuties yst i mean those kids. tampinese kids are really super hyper and active!! they kept coming to us to get flyers!

the most memorable one was the kid dragging his parents to me to get the flyers. he got 6 flyers from me in total. HAHA. THANKS for your support boy. hahaha.

yea for a start he got 1. den he came back and got another 1. HAHA his actions super funny. he would roll himself on the glasswall den come to me with a shy look. HAHA. den he would run back den come again with a flyer stucked on his face because he was paiseh to see me. HAHA.

yup so he got 3 alrd.

then he asked his father whether he want a flyer.

"no, i don need."

then he dragged his mum to me. reluctantly, his mum followed his lead to me and took the flyer. HAHA. then he persuaded his father again. hes really persistent. maybe he can be a good salesman or something. haha.

"papa, ni yao ma? ni yao la!! ni yao!!"

then without any words, he dragged his father to me. HJAHA.

so in total he gt 6. each gt one. LOL. i found the scene super funny. a family of 3 got my flyers. his mum asked me to say byebye to jiejie. luckily its not aunty.

haha yaa den he screamed. BYEBYEBYEBYE. all passerbys looked at me because he almost knocked onto someone as he was moving backwards.

hahahahahah. really cute right i kept laughinmg and laughing at his bahaviours. he really loves me that much!! HAHA.

gt a few kids came and get my flyers and they are really supportive! HAHA. gt one girl got my flyer and screamed all the way back to her mum. i could hear her voice when we were 100m apart.

hahaha kids are so excited to get our 'woof woof' flyers. ahhaa.

oh ya i really gt common look man. gt one aunty kept looking at me then stopped and stare. HAHA. that song. den

"SIEW MEI?"

her partner, "really meh, no la."

"you siew mei?"

for one moment i tot she asking whether i gt trim eyebrow anot. HAHAA> or am i promoting those trimming eyebrows package.SUPER FUNNY.

so i was like, "huh, er nono no." i dunno hw many nos i said.

LOL. and i remembered giving the same guy flyers again. HAHA. 1st at wisma now tamp. AHAH. so paiseh.

breaking. yeah i hope i know hw to do breaking. haha.

qiudan is making me laugh like mad.

LOL. i cant stand her face. super funny. its my wallpaper in my hp now.

alright the normal one. hey you got dimple? HAHA. mus be influenced by me!! LOL.

slpy typing

2008-04-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

yup im slpy and im typing. that explains the title for today.

haha lots of complaining to do before getting into bed today otherwise i will get worse after today which is tml, and that is too unfair to qiudan cos she needs to hear me complaining the whole day when we are working.

super tired. 8am to 10 pm. on the 1st day of work at taka. its stressful to do the closing. really. alot of procedures and details to be noted/. reminded me of secondary sch days when i had to keep taking down notes. yeah. today was alright. luckily.

yst, half day. from 930 to 330pm. i walked from taka to bugis to take the train. haha. save MONEY. yeah and also to exercise. its been a while since i exercised.

got home, was really hungry so i ate my mum's chk rice. haha. afterwhich went to library to return the overdued books. then went to my godparents' house.

the 1st thing i had to do was to do admin; helping my godpa with his medical appts dates. yup luckily i was a planner i know what to do. but unfortunately he was really a nuisance at times. so i had to be more tolerant. really im improving tremendously because i didnt make any noise.

i was really mentally and physically drained for the days.

alot of responsibility that i had to carry for taht taka job.

dunno why it turned out this way. is it our fault for not being able to work for the days when we are not free?

work was boring sometimes; at the end of the day i was selling honey for my neighbours. lol i should change booth.

i was happy that most of the mothers trusted me ;)
some of them were really nice and friendly. but of cos we met sucky customers too.

and teh transportation fees is really killing my pocket slowly. gawd. hw many times have i topped up the money for this mth. argg. they should lower the price!!!! wth. i hate inflation.

everything rises except salary.
they dunno maths or wat?

okok 1,2,3 breathe.

ya so tml i need to take bus because it is cheaper. dots i hate bus rides. especially long bus rides.

i don like it because it makes me emo for nothing and its slower. even though it is not slower but it feels like its slower. so ya in conclusion i always have to do things that i don wish to do.

only now, im doing what i feel like doing.

2008-04-08T14:52:00.014+08:00

tuesda.y
falling asleep

was busy as usual.

roadshow was tiring but that was the most happening one, with a lot of kind souls, funny 'dares' played between me and qiudan HAHA, and more.

saw peihua and yisheng its always nice to see my sec sch mates they are friendly and easy to talk to hahaha. the last hr was crazy for us because we simply could not finish giving out ALL the flyers. it was killing our legs and soul. hahaha. we played 'dares'. alright i shall not mention here. lol.

at our desperate moment, YILONG came and saved us. hahaha. THANKS MAN. you rocks sometimes. lols! yup i was stunned and really happy to see a yellow polo tee guy walking towards us. AHA. thanks to yl and friends that we finally could go home. ;)

it was nice meeting people haha because it was a nice feeling to see people smiling to you back even though you guys dunno each other. haha. yups;) no wonder thats a saying, there are no strangers but friends not made.

yeah and i was thankful to all of the peopel who helped to take the flyers ahha and those who U-turned back jus to take the flyers.

9/10 malays will help to take the flyers. they are really nice people!!

i finally went for the 1st interview yst. and kind souls are everywhere. i met a lady who was willing to bring me across to my interview place. It was raining cats and dogs. coincidentally she was my HTM senior. hahaha. and she gave me a job opp.

today was the sec interview and they were keen to take me. its hard to make a decision. .. hmmm. so i went to search for more jobs. but seriously it was taking me to nowhere because i was browsing through blindly. args.

i ate two cakes in a row. lol. i guess im too stressed out.

oh ya, i quit POA and now, im having two jobs. tml will be a full day starts at 8am. $_$ haha. now im working working and working.

this time, the shirt was nicer but i felt it was too short haha.

we couldnt resist toilet breaks.

i felt that the shirt was kid size.

i don meant to take them into my picture. sigh. haha. shoo*

okie they are gone this time. haha. i prefer toilets at suntec because there are seats.

i know my hands are redundant. hahahaa. am i that short NO!!

my fav plant in my shop. ahah. i like to water it because it shines immediately, as if the water is some magic water.

i like the flowers of this plant. its white in color. haha my fav.

now, say byebye to POA. i will miss my colleagues!!! im alrd missing them;)

ahha went to swensens with qiudan someday last week and we had cookie monster and salmon sadwich. i f.a.l.l in love with salmon!! haha i had salmon bowl yst with peijiao!

it was really nice i like it. hahaha. it was funny because there was no bill. the waitress and manager stunned upon seeing the screen. ahha it was qiudan's treat. she had the voucher for swensens tahts explained why it was a free meal. hahaa.

i feel that its hard to maintain a friendship. because there are so many assumptions, misunderstandings and all. lol. i wanna say, i really treasure all my friends. really. and if there were any bad feelings, i hope we can solve them! ;)

its a nice place to chill. ahhaha.

wherever i am, i ll still think of you.

2008-04-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

haha i thought i had indigestion but the fact was i had eaten something wrong. i was woken up by the pain in the middle of the night. i couldnt sleep but i managed to catch a few winks. the pain didnt go off until the afternoon. fortunately it was the time before i went for work.

i cancelled my interview in the morning because i was really sicked. the feeling when you wanna vomit but nothing came out was sickening. i never thought i still have the energy to meet sockhui and the boss to talk about our new job. i even rushed there!! and my poor feet got cut again. yeah after lunch went for work.

standing for the whole day except the half and hr break time. or maybe lesser because i ate in the store. my colleague who appeared to be bad told me about her lovelife. stunned me.!!!! yup imeant her story and also her sudden change.

tzehui came and bought drinks and mentos hahah thanks alot i really need some water because i only eat watermelon to replenish the water in my body for the whole day.

today worked at Singtel. was happy to see mei jin!! US dollars. oh ya i saw meiqi! tomato hahahha. tzehui! ur friend! hahah. i recognized her despite her change in hairstyle and appearance. she switched to contact lens haha and she remembered me!

we met kind souls they helped us with the flyers. oh ya i saw alot of familiar faces and cute guys HAHAHA.

oh ya amk notebook shop is really nice and i wanan buy them all. hahaa. level 2.

the samsung guy incident was funny.
our in charge is funny also and i was stunned because he looks really decent.
jin mun is as easygoing as ever. ;)

and i was really high to see mei jin for i dunno why. hahahaa. i cant forget she said her chinese name is 'mei li' de 'mei', jin se de 'jin' aahah.

den i was saying ur brother mus be called 'wang jin' or 'chao piao'. which means gold or cash.

haha okies gtg tml work again. now is alrd gg 1am! gosh!

its a terrible

2008-04-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

feeling.
to get indigestion.

yeah i ve been feeling unwell these few days and i looked like a sheet of paper if i don make up. great creation. haha it covers up everything and boost your confidence immediately to 100%. ahha okies 90% maybe.

except for the eyeliner part the rest is ok/. ahaha.

i dread tml because im gg to work with her. ARG. save me!!! and i need to tell her that she did not write my working days correctly. my another colleague urged me to tell her by tml. butterflies in my stomach whenever i see her face hear her voice.

sad. aha. i ve an interview tml . yeah this time a full time job. seriously, qiudan is right, i might be cut out to be a sales consultant since i love talking to people. hahahaaa.

i hope the pay is good. haha;)

alright, i shall stone when i see her.

2008-04-01T00:11:00.002+08:00

lol; im watching the repeat of the 'wei wo du zun' and seriously im thinking whether the shouting and shrieking are from peijiao huixin they all. hahaha. omg i missed the chance of going there!! HAha. sure very fun and so many cute guys JAJA.

but i think some guys look scary though hahaha but some are really h.o.t LOL. im not watering SERIOUS. hahah.

my feet is super pain because of the two huge blisters. it was still bleeding when i reached home after work. pro. haha.

i decided not to go for the telemarkter interview. partly because my sis father said i alrd got part time jobs and i don need that anymore.

seriously im lost. haha. do i really wanna go for events? i wish im gg army. ahha so i have two yrs to think abt it. ahhah.

arh its like so stressful. i often have to take a deep breath in order to reduce the pressure.

i wanna do alot of things buy alot of things but seriously how can i plan when everything is uncertain. beat me.

nvm i will find a way out. haha. think qiutin think!!

haha sidetrack abit i think m5 quite cute and scary at the same time omg. hahaha. can cute and scary come together?

m6 super sunshine! his smile is so wide and shiny hahah can go for DARLIE ads. oh ya one shocking news huixin ur cousin is actually so old? stunned me!

but nvmnvm he still looks great ok hahaha. later his fans come box me. haha.

haha okie i better run.

can i don grow up

2008-03-31T12:08:00.005+08:00

as we grow up responsibility increases.

a few days back my mum was talking to me about her medical expenses and all those random stuff. i wondered when is the last time we have a decent chat.
seriously, deep inside i was afraid of facing the reality. im still running away from it. it doesnt go away when i don think of it. so im learning to face it. i think im doing better now. haha. my mum said eating alone is not as enjoyable as eating with people around. yeah. i know what she means. sometimes you know it but ur mind don usually coordinate well with ur actions.

my godma says she loves me staying at her house and its no trouble at all, when i said i might be a nuisance sometimes/all the time. haha. i dunno why i suddenly feel like crying when she said all those stuff to me. am i someone that emotional omg!

maybe its been so long since someone told me they like me to be around and they want me to be around. haha.

working over the weekends and i see alot of familar faces haha. its nice to meet people. i like to laugh at ppl. ahhaha. i know i will get karma ppl will laugh at me too. hahah. its okie, jus laugh at me alright.

i persuaded qiudan to play the 'dare' with me. AHhaa. i dare her to walk up to the super narrow staircase and give out flyers. hahhaha. she did it. and so did i. but the kuku thing was, the passer-bys who walked up the stairs only laughed at me!! LOL.

hahaha its okies i was busy laughing also hahahaaa the guy coming down took the flyer from me and he didnt laugh. ahaha okies thanks. haaha.

ya i enjoyed playing. hahahaa. i think its because of that friday-with-sockhui that rekindle my passion for this kinda stuff.

hahhahahaha.

i guess my ex bf would think that im crazy and childish. but now i don need to think about all this stuff anymore.

hahaa lifes like this, you don need to be so rigid and do things that are right doesnt make you happier anyway.

yaa. lol maybe i should be more firm to my own thinking. haha i guess i listen too much from ppl. sometimes it gets my confidence lower each time.

yeah thats saddening.

sigh. oh ya i saw nat!! hahaha hes the same when hes on tv. lol.

some guys are really nice, they ask their gf and friends to help us to take the flyers. now den i realised they are nice. lol! i don mean those who din take are not nice; they might think that they don need it and have to throw it into the bin anyway.

hahaha hw come i know? because im one of them

LOL. but after that week after i distribute those flyers, i began taking all the flyers from others. HAHA. you ought to believe in karma sometimes. hahaha.

alright. im facing problems with POA and its gettingon my nerves. arg i got to learn eye make up because of this job. dots. why do ppl invent such things. its troubling me!! lol/

not in a good mood these few days because of all the pressure im facing. from work, lack of slp, the fact that i haven got a full time job and blar.

sigh. can i don grow up?

2008-03-27T23:48:00.004+08:00

you still zoom pass my mind everytime without any notice.

randomly browsed through a blog and i found out that all guys are all the same.

they got you running in circles
and then walked away and say they are not ready in a relationship

its as though i have gotten an elaborated answer.

anyway im not gg to say anymore of this haha. i need to get my payyy.
and thanks to sockhui i got my pair of shoes! lols i like shopping with her because she knows how to say no when i was about to buy something. haha. today we did a stupid thing. AHAH. ok whats new right.

i pressed the bell thinking that its for sale and suddenly the owner came with his drink. i think he was having a break and i ruined part of it. haha.

i saw someone who resembled E and HAHA. IT WAS NOT HIM. hahahahahahah im sorry sockhui i did hope it was him then it would be the best gift for you.

it was so funny because suddenly the good friends separated after going to the toilet and everyone outside at ben's n jerry were looking at one of them. AND i was the one. i think that was because of my laughter.

dumbly, i went and he turned towards my direction. i dont think my laughter was that loud. lol. then the next moment i realised i was heading towards a musuem-look-alike shop. SHIT. maybe my cap might show that im that kind who visit those shops that normal teenagers wont go.

because it was the only shop along that stretch that was opened, i had to go in in order to avoid looking suspicious. so i went in. SERIOUSLY i thought i was gg to bump onto any glass any moment because the glassdoor don look like a door and everything was like distracting me; the big big tv filming those old time story (japanese occupation or something), those floating paintings, glass cabinet sort of thing and colours.

ahha but after a while i got used to it and i saw the transformation of the cameras. from the past to presence. its really nice! and you got to go cathay.

yup and before i could get a clearer look at them, sockhui called and i had to carry out my mission.

hahaha we kept giggling non-stop until i walked past the target.

LOL and acted as though we had lost each other.

ahhahaha its really lame! but its quite fun actually its been so long since i have done that!! LOL. kinda remind me of the stupid things i did in de past. AHHA.

seriously when we met each other's eyes i felt like jumping down to sockhui. im still shy la. HAHA.

okies. thats the most fun thing today i guess. LOL. oh ya no long bus rides for me anymore. its getting me emo for nothing!!!

2008-03-25T10:37:00.009+08:00

here we go
broom
broom.

shopping needs atoilet break too. hahaha.

haa. my sis's wearing eyeliner!! i think she resembles the taiwan gothic singer. hahah.

she says she looks werid in this pic. NO. you don!! haha its nice!! vote for her HAHA.

okies im trying to do something with my not-so-busy hand. haha.

thats sudden/.

haha okies im helping to promote the dustbin.

werid position hahahaa. ok jus focus on my face!

another picture where i dunno where to place my hand at. hahaha. i dunno how models are so carefree!!!

thats taken on sunday. ya. im trying to recall things. hahaha. memory fails. my sis treated me to kimchi and bbq chk set. its still as NICE. =D

i have eaten it for # times so you guys have to try it. the soup was really NICE, picked the one with no egg in it. i think its the seafood one. its at taka basement you can see Ajisen there. haha so you know where you can find it.

yup and we went shopping though we are tight on cash. hahaa.

AND YES the teh peng was NICE. it sells toast and all, not ya kun. its beside ya kun. HAha. i wonder why stalls selling the same type of food like to stand beside each other.

maybe they will get to enjoy the spill over effect. haha.

i like gg out with my sis because shes a diff person when she was outside!! HAHA. shes nicer i guess. hahahah. and shes nice in black! ahah cos shes fair i guess.

i wanna be fair!! but dunno why im still like that. lol.

alright the construction next doors began and there goes my slp!

sickening. waking me up early in the morning. i gottta change my plan!

i looked at some webby about curved spine this morning.

seriously i was stunned. i need to do something abt it soon. yeaah tml will be a better day!

2008-03-25T09:02:00.014+08:00

those renovation days were crazy. with limited cash i had to control my budget. yes, i walked most of the times to huixin and qiudan's house. haha. this picture was taken when i was on my way to qiudan's house!

tomorrow with be a better day! (and i saw my tp eyecandy a few days back!! TWICE. hahahah.)

i love my godma/pa;) and i miss ah fat! her picture is still sticked onto the wall and i really miss her. see 'the block of flats' picture, its sunshine after rain. and i slept everyday beside the tv throughout the 5days! you see how much i love the tv. haha no la. cos there was not enough space for me to sleep. haha.

there was a night when i got freak out by a super real nightmare. the murderer was chasing me , tzehui and another girl (i reckon its qiudan! HAHA). yes, very scary. lol! and i quickly switched on my hp, (though i don have the habit of turning it off but i dunno why i decided to turn it off that night) i felt much at ease when i saw the picture of peijiao and me. HAhaa. the fortunate thing was i had woken up from this nightmare.

hahaha the darkest wan is qiudan's. she accidentally poured too much black soy sauce hahaha. (that cant be eaten lol!) and oh ya thats the picture of the toilet at the mall at clarke quay. haha its super boring there. don go. lol.

haha. i like working there because the pay is good and there is not much restriction we jus need to brush up our hiding skills ya qiudan HAHA. i couldnt forget how funny it was when they kept asking us to hide somewhere in a corner. as though we are some construction workers or immigrants. hahahahahaahahahaha. i wanna burst out laughing.

and yes, tourists especially the chinese like to take picture of Sg flyer.
oh ya the 1st day of work was when i borrowed yl's house toilet hahah forgotten to thank you!! i could tell the other dog of yours MUST be super fierce. i could picture its ferocious look on its face. lol. i hope ur family was not woken up by the barkings and my voice. hahaa.

she danced with one angmoh on the bridge. LOL. no la jus kidding!! it seemed like, but they were only dodging from each other. HAHaa i was laughing along with the passer-bys. de scene was really FUNNY, you wish you were there. lol.

ok here we go, our toilet breaks. hahaha. it helped greatly, to turn the minute hand.

i really got no idea how to pose. lol.

yes i worked at P.O.A too. ;)

i always need to carry pails of water, top up the water for steamer and water heater. so ya, i got the time....to relax abit. ahhaha. but other than day, it was really tiring. i don even have an hr break. the only time i could sit down was when i was eating my dinner at the store.

the second day trained me to overcome my phobia of height because i have to climb up and down up and down to take and put the stock. i was lucky enough because the new stock jus came and the whole shop practically got its new face. the layout was changed and old stock needed to be folded and sent to other outlets.

yes thats the reason they hire me. lol.

my colleague was straightforward and i kept reminding myself its better than meeting those hypocrites. haha. so ya. im considered lucky when she shot me with those questions like 'you don need to do see me do ar?'. and she became more demanding as each day passed by.

i practically steamed all the clothes in the shop. and i never fail to find water vapour on my fingers. the steamer is too strong and i always got steamed. so end of the day my fingers turned red.

but there are strong pts about my colleague, shes organized and hardworking. she never stops, so cant i. lol.shit i wish she was qiudan!! den i will have more breaks.

too boredd. aha.

its the new layout. and i folded those roses!!! ;D

yes thats the culprit , the s t e a m er.

then tzehui came!! waht a surprise! i finally got to talk. hahaha. after work went sg flyer. that was my 1st time there and seriously it was really nice! especially when we were close to it. haha.

he is still as chatty and its really nice to be with someone who gt tons to say because it means i can take a break. hahah. it suddenly reminds me of the days at TAS. haha. and sabrin.a is really cool. lol she works part time at Starhub, a bartender and she studies LAW. Hahahah. go for her!!! LOL.

my legs threatened to give way when i was in the train. standing for 8 hrs and walking to Sg flyer can kill them. and not to forget standing in the forever packed trainnnnnnn.

2008-03-24T12:25:00.002+08:00

peijiao is my fav friend cos..

she slept on the floor while i slept on the bed
she motivated me to find FT jobs
she fetched me when it was raining cats and dogs
she sent me to the busstop (rain or shine)
she lended me her skirt for work
she helped me with my resume photo
she made me walk around the garden and got lost when i was rushing for work HAHA.!
she gave me a souvenir - a purple toothbrush LOL.
she made me laugh
she knew how to imitate those mocca ADS
she cooked for me
she even prepared my bathwater!!

we sang watched tv and have fun searching for jobs! hahaha and she's there when i needed her MOST!

A BIG BIG THANKYOU to PEIJIAO!!!! ;D

the last bow

2008-03-24T11:40:00.001+08:00

我们的爱过了就不再回来
直到现在我还默默的等待
当你开始追寻你要的自由
放开我们紧握的手
带走我的爱和天空
我不知所措我以为我会懂
我们的爱我们的爱

当我独自走到时间的尽头
回忆和我擦身而过
带走你的爱和笑容
我无力承受最后的一点心痛

我们的爱我们的爱
把爱放开把手放开
如果你的心已不在

把爱放开不再等待
你的温柔是一片空白
把爱放开把心打开
这次我决定走出回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来
就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来
啊......

这次我决定走出所有回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来
就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来

终于明白爱已不再
从今以后再也没有什么能去依赖
我还有什么期待

***

2008-03-23T14:32:00.004+08:00

ADVANCED BIRTHDAY BOY
de nicest title for you, yilong! HAHA.

@suntec ;) its a good place when you stepped on some lemon. haha. if you know what i mean.

actually i always mixed up his birthday with jeanie's. 9mar and 10mar. HAHA. so i wished him an early birthday and found out in awe that his birthday was actually on the next day. SORRY. hahaha.

searched for another birthday boy's present and i had to give it up to yl. he almost tried all the cologne!! and frankly speaking my nose is quite sensitive to those smell, especially the strong ones. you gotta pay for my medical fees if you see this. i think my nose need a checkup. haha.

yep and his friend bought a watch. although i only got a glimpse of it because i was rushing for work, (not the day we meet, but on the another day where i have to borrow his house./ HAHA. sounds wrong. specifically i was borrowing his house toilet , room and a bowl of water!! LOL) its quite nice. and i heard that it cost a bomb. faster go treat ppl dinner. haha.!

haha i finally caught you boy. hahah. though hes not that kind of cute chubby boy or those handsome boy, but his behaviours made me laugh. hahaha. he actually came in front of us when i asked him to come. HAHA. he's busy playing catching so you know its not easy to ask him to spare some time.

next, i was drinking water. de next moment, he came with his drink infront of me. ahahaa. i was dumbfounded. lol at the end of the day i failed to scare him.

he waved byebyes to us (frantically) and shouted too. hahaha.

hello bestie.

2008-03-23T00:12:00.002+08:00

hey haha miss me?
finally got back home.
finally got some time of my own.
finally on msn.
its abit werid to see the same dp! thats why i print screened. haha. thats my bestie ah ma!! ;)

oh ya can help to promote some songs you sent me. HAHA. give me promo fees!

lots to update.

2008-03-12T17:43:00.003+08:00

i need a break.

its only the second day of renovation and seriously i want to MOVE OUT.
really super super duper angry.

i cant stand it alrd.WITH the stupid arrangement, i had to trouble myself so much. oh ya, you must be thinking, since you are jobless you should do abit more.

ya. its more than jus coming home to lock the door and waiting an hr for my dad. i have to do the houswork, move the furnitures, clean the place and stand the naggings.

what did i do wrong to deserve all these?

the moment i reached home yesterday, i had to start doing housework. then can i go for dinner. and its forever raining. damn it.

and then i got scolded for not hanging the clothes well. '20yrs old alrd everything also dunno.......etc'

wth.?? jus because you are tired you can scold me?

this morning, i waited for another hr and got scolded again. this time, i forgot to pass the key to him. yes. its all my fault for being drowsy in the morning when i din even have breakfast.

then, again. called me to buy dinner for him when i was on my way home. its was 430pm. and i need to get home by 515pm (this was what he told me this morning).

and guess what i was at HOUGANG and i just missed the bus. and it was raining super heavily. he raised his voice at me when i tried to reason out with him. its impossible for me to reach home by 515 if i were to buy dinner for him. then i realised toking to him is jus wasting my breath.

yell*

i think everyone mus have tot im mad. im the only one who walked in heavy rain with ground flooded with rainwater. i was practically running and splashing water and damn it, i couldnt shower at home.

so i finally bought the dinner and rushed back. you cant imagine your feet with all the mud and leaves and water.

despite all the efforts, i was reprimanded for not being early home. i looked up the clock, 525pm.

yes. damn it. i should have returned at 6pm instead.

then the moment i reached, he asked me to move the stuff to the back. i told him, after i rest a while i will do. he said IM LAZY. 'You very busy meh? so free don do work. dunno why. you jus don care about this home.'

wth?

i jus don care this home.

ya. its jus a waste of my efforts.

whatever i do, nobody appreciates.

my brother is the same.

yesterday they returned late. jus nice. they can straightaway go to bed without any efforts done.

i was disappointed with my brother. why cant you return earlier to help?

my home. to me. its jus like a hotel.

2008-03-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

i thought i alrd prepared myself for the worst.

i never know...

i never know...it would hurt me that much.

i hate myself for replying in those 'haha' way.
i hate myself for being nonchalant.
i hate myself for not letting him know how hurt i am.
i hate myself from lying. to myself.
i hate myself for being foolish hoping that he will return one day.
i hate myself for even thinking of ways that he will get me back.
i hate myself for worrying about him when he didnt reply.
i hate myself for writing this but i just cant hold it no longer.
i hate myself for losing slp.

..everything is jus not right for me.

the tide of being poured

2008-03-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

sigh. construction will be starting tml. shit man. this time its at my house. gawd. made changes to our funiture and all. everythng is squeezed into one room. that includes the ppl.

i never thought of living in this way.
7am - alarm rings, wash up
710am - breakfast
8am - here comes the construction workers. sigh. at the same time, we have to get out of house if we don wan to turn deaf or get the dust all over us.
8am - wait for my dad
915am - he might reach by then
from then, i have to find activities until evening.

i have to return home by 530pm to lock the door.

from then, i have to find other activities.

whats more, have to go down to share toilets. THATS the worse case.

and i heard that its dirty.

o m g .

super irritated by the plan.

the thing is i have no choice no say but to oblige.

i feel like pulling someone's hair and scream.

------

she has not given up.
she had a dream/nightmare last night. the worse part of it was that it was so real. she could still remember the content of it.
the 1st part was the happy moments, the 2nd was the bad part. the handwriting was ulgy, she couldnt clearly see all of it. but she got the answer.

her heart was still as heavy when she woke up from it.

tears flowed involuntarily. and she really dunno what is she supposed to do. she recalled the dream. he has alrd made his decision and moved on while she is still here.

------

sigh. x 1000000

2008-03-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

yay went badminton with huixin today finally burnt some fats haha. we played 45mins?? continuously!! hahaha and it was fun because we chatted while playing, fully utilising the time. hahah.

and after which, went for late lunch. the hokkien mee was nice but the mango yohurt was a little too sweet for me. haha but okie i enjoyed the meal because i was too hungry. haha.

then went huixin house OMG. its comfortable to the point that i don mind staying at home 24/7.

PLEASE. i wanna stay there.! let me stay there!

hahah. lets go badmintoning again! =D

oh ya this is given from huixin! 我爱棒棒糖？

i like it thanksthanks! :D

2008-03-06T11:50:00.003+08:00

when everything seems out of place.
i r e a l i s ed. its n e v e r eas.y to f o rget.

anyway out with peijiao . haha. peijiao low! i still feel werid when ppl start calling my full name. for one moment i dunno they are calling me. lol. qiutin quek! ah peijiao low i feel like pulling your hair when you start calling me that hahah! but ok la im getting used to it. haha im bad at adapting i guess? LOL cos i cant tak e it immediately. i need to digest. ahhaa.

went job hunting yea. im forever waiting for replies. .
its ok because im getting used to waiting. haha.
i have been waiting for slmost all my friends during each outing since the start of 2008. is it a curse or wat?

lyna - waited . sockhui - no . shane - waited . peijiao - waited . tzehui - waited .

beneath the smiles.

i hate to be abnormal, i tried to be normal.
maybe i can pretend that nothing happened.
i kept consoling myself, but at the en d of the day i still feel l o st.
its easier to say than done? ya. i guess we can console others but
ourselves.

its been a week 7 days, and i haven gotten any reply.

i tried not to think but it jus came to my mind. what am i supposed to do. i really dunnno.
i tried all means not to remember, but it jus poped out now and then.

it slowly becomes a part of my life and i wonder when will i be freed.

lol. really don wish to be emo. hahaa. don wish to be truthful to my own feelings. because, im not used to it. ahha.

im feeling even worse than i thought.

i hate myself saying im c r e s t f a l l en.

im starting to be afraid.

2008-03-04T22:36:00.005+08:00

love makes people greedy.
yes. although its unintended.

gosh. im like w a s t i n g my time away.

i need a jobb. or maybe i can go .................................................... learn something? LOL. but before that i still need to get a job earn some money. GOSH.

so whats the conclusion./

i need a job badly.
hopefully i can get one this week!!!

im m i s s i n g you.

2008-03-04T11:58:00.005+08:00

P.S. ~~i love you~~ C a t h ay

i like all the stuff there! lol maybe i shall get one of them when i got my 1st pay. and they haven called me yet!! . sigh. its bored at home.

lol self-conscious. BUT HEY. my hair is really m e s s y!!

ok this is much better. hahaha. oh ya forgot to introduce

TZEHUI!!!

a grown up now? lol. becoming stronger.

i mean physically! HAHA.

he always got tons to say, thats good cos i can take a break.

ahaha. with him and ah ma, i can take a nap 1st. LOL.

yes us again haha. getting boredd?

alright alright me and ah ma! haha. they really make me feel that im
really
s h ort.
haha.

went my godma house yst but din manage to slp. really restless these days. my mind is blank, and i always need to write down in my diary what im gg to do next, otherwise i will be wasting my time away watching the tv or simply stoning.

yes thats how bad. lol. this morning i watched the tv, they say when we are stressed we can get tummy too. lol. no wonder i got tummy!! hahah. stressed eh. lol.

and everytime i set alarm at 820am, i never fail to turn off the alarm each morning. haha. i jus cant open my eyes! kept waking up in the middle of the night.

so it leaves me feeling slpy in de noon.

lol. . gosh they better call me soon.

f i r at expo boom!

2008-03-03T12:55:00.005+08:00

hello my old friend!!
you rocks. upside down. ;)

featuring s h a ne and q i u t in

haha cant imagine that i can really be myself when im with him! because this is the 2nd time we are meeting and the 1st time going out. hahaha. so old friends still rocks as ever!.

yep and its been quite some time since i can really complain for all i want and talk as loud as i want. lol. though you might want to runaway and tell everyone you dunno me. haha. it might be embarassing to go out with me. hahaha. don say i din give warning.

i enjoyed the music the performance and there were times when i was touched. by their strong belief in something. something like that. well. hahaa. i dunno how to describe it.

and i was comfortable because we kept whispering to each other during the whole service. haha.

hahaha bus 38! typical singaporean running to seats. hahaha. i never know he can be so cute la!

oh ya the hamsters are cute too! they always gt that innocent look on their faces!!

so tiredd now, slept late and woke up early!! gotta catch some slp later at my godma house!

more photos to be uploaded!

im

2008-03-02T23:33:00.003+08:00

waiting.

i think im forever waiting.

...

im a li tt le anxious.

no..

v e r y

anxious.

whats ur ans?

...

im scared to know.

but i have to know.

i need to know.

...

can i take it when i know the ans.

i could feel

my heart b e at

going very f a s t

breathless.

...

2008-02-29T21:10:00.005+08:00

out with sockhui -

say cheese. whyyy not bread. lol. nola.

did you see two persons?

see clearly, you can do it. lol.

did you see a dog face and two persons? (tag it.)

alright i ended my drawing. lol stunned. so fast.!

i m mi s s i ng yo u.

2008-02-28T16:23:00.003+08:00

不开心不可以当饭吃。没办法，只能做更多事用疲惫麻痹自己。
我真的不知道发生了什么事，话越来越少，在也听不见那笑声，也找不回那份感动。
不知道从什么时候，你跟我在一起时总是显得不快乐。你知道你这样子让我很难过，不知道该这么做，该说什么。

我不想问，因为。。。

好复杂的情绪。

life can be back to normal, slp well eat well play well lame well.

de days at uws dolphin lagoon;))

2008-02-27T13:21:00.008+08:00

i like de skies there. i still remember i would always take a picture of the sky whenever im happy or sad. haha. it seems to be able to know what im thinking how im feeling. haha.

yes i know its lame. haha.

preparing to jump. action.!
POWER SHOT jumping for joy!

eh? de resolution is quite bad. HAHA. i think this is the #th attempts before this was taken. LOL. i cant jump .

maybelline

2008-02-26T13:43:00.021+08:00

makeove.r
its difficult to wash them off.

1st shot in de toilet

trying to be funny.

yes trying more shots

my eyes are getting smaller and smaller.

alright th.e normal one. haha.

i was thinking of taking all cleos out and start following the exercise tips.
BUT. my brother is at home lol. i shy. haha. i think he will think im nuts.

yes, among all i only bought one copy. hahaa. which is the latest one. i bought it because the journey to cck was really far. and UNCLES love HUNKS. REALLY. the uncle beside me kept looking them. lol. and he looked away until i turn to the other page (health tips page). yup. be careful now, hunks. hahaha.

yup obviousl;y i din follow it, began to play with my sonyeric. yup. guess whats it inside.

it looks like it contains some expensive stuff. lol.

my new bag. haha. thanks to sockhui who accompanied me for hours before her work! ;) and her taste is very good. hahahaa. 我找对人了！its thirty-eight dollars. ;))

yup sorry my photography skill is still as bad. lol.

yes, the interior is l o v e ly. ;)

haha. my new watch. 10dollars. ;)))

thats de time when i was bored. yes. 1155am.

last night i was really very tiredd and i could slp anywhere you name. its been a long time since i was so dead tired.

my itineary yst

bank (together with godmapa) ---> breakfast ---> home ---> godma;s house ---> home (It rained!!) ---> cityhall (shopping) ---> godma house ---> home sweet home.

if you realised, i kept going back to my house. i could have gone to her house straight after the breakfast and could have headed to meet sockhui from her house. haha. i think i really need to tire out myself then i wont think too much. haha.

look werid? lol its actually a 5R photo. because i don have a scanner so i took it with my sonyeric.

yes been watching tv the whole morning. thats fang da tong. lol. someone who really makes me to take a second look at him. because i dunno why i always cant see his face CLEARLY.

hes actually quite cute, you gotta see in another way. lol.

they are damn funny. they changed the lyrics of burn into chinese lyrics.

yst was thinking. maybe i din try hard enough. maybe i shouldnt give up without trying my best. maybe its my fault. maybe maybe maybe. im jus making myself tired so that i wont have any energy to think about what to do next. i could feel my energy depleting.

2008-02-25T11:17:00.003+08:00

de pic says it all. haha.

and yes, im finding a job.

can you guess what this means?
tag it. haha. interesting prizes to be won. HAHA. jus kidding.

jus came back from breakfast with my godpa.
woke up super early and last night was bad.
couldnt find myself slping until 3plus am.

it came back again. sickening.

accompanied my godparents to the bank and seriously luckily there were only the old folks. or else i would be super embarrassed. the whole place was filled with my godpa's voice and because he couldnt hear properly i nearly shouted. but yea, my voice was considered super loud alrd la cos the place was super quiet.

YES. i think i cant stand bad mother-in-laws i will scream at them and pull their ears. and run away. haha. kidding la. i think i might jus box them up when they are sleeping. lol

they told me there is no rush finding a job and really if there isnt any, don work. HAHA. i heard the last two words.

yes. i wish. hhaha. i know they wan me to spend more time to accompany them. ya, and thats why i haven been finding a job. another reason, i really dunno when i will have my break/holiday if i start work now.

3rdly, i haven really had my HOLIDAY. i still have so much things to do. hmm like? (well, maybe learning yoga, dancing or cycling) sigh. thats not really considered a holiday. and i could learn them even when im working. so thats not a reason. lol.

seriously thinking back, i never rest for a mth before!!! hahaha! kept working and working.

but ya, last night have been thinking about it. should find a job soon. because i have to do something!! and maybe i should try GAP/Ben's and jerry. ahaha.

i only tot of working at this two companies.

i wanna work at cathay because theres liveband!! hahaha maybe i should find places where theres liveband or something. HAHA. eh, i tot of becoming a band singer! HAHA. its like wow. i can sing to earn money. lol. alright stop dreaming alrd.

and after a lesson learnt, i really hate to make friends with guys. LOL.

thats bad. ya i know.

and seriously, maybe love is not for me. it jus makes me so vulnerable. and i longed for a good laugh.

i <3 you

2008-02-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

,koon;)

this the first time im saying, and seriously i dunno when will i have the courage to say it again. lol though you might not see it, but maybe someday you might see this. maybe.

i could feel the awkward silence. i could feel it, though i didnt show it. and yea i will give you more time.

i couldnt slp last night because of the pain. i hate periods!
and i felt the pain all the way from cck to bedok.

and NOW, i still feel the pain.

i guess i need some time to recover from all these.

meeting two of my darlings;))

2008-02-20T11:24:00.013+08:00

yesyes. i was at borders yesterday. i cant imagine going there alone either. hahaha. so i practically hid at this section during the 1st hour of waiting time. and spent the other hr at orchard station waiting for lyna. hahaa. but everything was alright until de cramps came. lol. (i sit until leg cramps!)
maybe i can pretend that i can bake some cookies or cupcakes. HAHA. ;)) i do hope ican.

how did indian cooking get in there! LOL. it totally spoils the picture. the main lead is actually SWEET TREATS.

the book cover is NICE;) but the photography skills is bad.;(

because it was heavy and i was using one hand to carry it and de other to take the photo. hahaha so cant blame me ya! its alrd not bad. HAHA.

its simple and nice;)

ahaha creative!

hahaha. its like my dream cake. hahaha.

haaha i can relate myself in this picture. haaa.

YEAH. PRETTY CAKES THEY ARE. ;))

i like this;)) maybe because its white? and thereare stars! hahah.

ahhaa its nice too!

maybe i can make this for my newborn baby in the future. LOL. alrightalright i shall stop kidding myself. hahaa.

haha yup went P.S with my darling;) and chocolates really make me happy;)! hahah okie i know i gotta go burn those fats soon.. hahaa. i know he dotesme;) hahaa. we went arcade because minds cafe was not opened yet. and gosh i actually forgot its MINDS not satellite. lol. felt bad but, i don really bother to remember the names of the places i go to. so ya.

but luckily we had fun at arcade hahahaa de jap drums are actually quite fun but the music was really funny!! HAHA. and i was bad at shooting. okies i knew it. AHHa. oh ya i like the bb machine its funnn hahaha and i think we are both quite observant because we scored well in photohunt. GOSH. its not very good when you are too observant because you might see what you don wan to see. haha.

parted at heeren and i headed off to borders. there was filming gg on and if im not wrong the guy is cute LOL. i got not enough time to see thats why ahahhaa sounds like im a big pervert. lol jus kidding la!

yeayea den went to meet lyna;) ahahah it was fun and we had fun shoppinnnnnnnnggggggggg. the shop she reccommended was great though i didnt bother to notice de name of de shop. it was a black top and there isnt even any logo or anything on the shopping bag. so ya it was a plain white bag and i might be able to see shop again if we were fated to. hahaa.

but i really like it! it was what i was finding., hahaha. and yup finally own a pair of leggings .

yup yup and i think i fall in love with the korean food at taka (or issit wisma?) 3 times i went town 3 town i ate the same thing. HAHA. gawd it was really appetising and nice! the soup and chicken were fantastic. go try if you like spicy stuff.;))

and yeah i like starfruit. i think its my fav fruit now. own up to its good shape and juicy meat!! ;hahahaa!

yupyup it was quite a good day except that my contacts were giving me trouble again. hahaa.

2008-02-19T10:25:00.002+08:00

my LAST day of school
excitedddd happyyy crazyyy yet. theres a tinge of sadness.

hahah i suddenly miss school life. hahhaha. if i had another chance, maybe i will take part in whatever i can. HAHA. and seriously, i MISS those times when we jus crap and lame our time away during breaks. the good times the bad times i miss them all.

maybe you wont believe and will not believe. im a sentimental person. HAHA!!! OMG thats so........ hahaha. ok u can fill up the blank yourself. hahhaha. yups but really, i did treasure everything that was given to me. the friends i have made, the genuine laughters, the support and encouragement. i did miss my year three groupmates. ;)) i would never forget the roleplay and the funny stuff we did.

hahaa maybe you guys would never see this. but i still wanna say, I WILL MISS YOU GUYS.

yups and not to forget, my lovely crazy crappy fun-loving happy friends! i heart them, heart me too LOL. PEIJIAO, HUIXIN, KELLYN, HUIMIN, TZEYE, PEIFEN, SUILAN, SYAHIDAH, HOWELUEN i'll never forget the times you guys have given me. haha hope it doesnt end here. ;)

yilong jus called me out for macdonalds breakfast and suddenly i MISS de old times. hahah those random times and all/. he never fails to remind me that im crazy in nature. HAHA.

and tzehui called last night! hhahah its like wow. been donkey years since we last chatted on phone. i suddenly missed those times. dinners at p.s., hes always there whenever i call, and he sees the ulgiest side of me LOL, and he can jus keep de conversations gg even though i was dead tired after school at tas, the times when he helped to carry my 'ja pa lang' hahahah, too many to mention ahha.

yups i MISS those memories.!

im walking away.

2008-02-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

and so the little girl took her star out for a little walk again.

it was really dark and the wind was so cold, so cold that tears dried up immediately once they left the corners of her eyes.

she walked up the hill,slowly. never once turn back to look at her star; and the little star followed closely behind her, never dare to go beside her.

"you will go home soon, to the place where u truly belong too." cried the little girl.

and she stood solemnly on the highest point of the hill, forced herself to grab hold of her little star, and slowly raising her arms towards the night sky, she pushed the star away from her towards the moon.

further and further it drifted.

"Thanks for all the memories, you'll always be my favorite shooting star!" shouted the little girl.

but soon she dropped to her knees, buried in her hands, she could no longer stop the tears from flowing.

"I'll miss you, i will. i really will"

i know its stupid

2008-02-16T12:33:00.002+08:00

but i jus cant help being worried. lol.
project interview is on mondayyyy. can i make it? omg. im so nervousss because it seems like an oral exam to me. honestly how many times have i spoke in english. hahahaa. i can count with my fingers. stunned? yeah im stunned too.haha.

HOW.

AND ITS ON MON.

and seriously i saw my report again. its not standardized. or have i edited alrd? i couldnt even remember. yeah its done and cant be undone. but it jus made me feel so. arg. why didnt i check againnnn. and i handed it up in a rush.

i hope that i was observant enough that day. i should have spotted the extra stuffff.

and yeah. maybe i did. hahah. because i went through it again. yes yes i remembered i went through it again. i even changed the heading and i changed back. yes i mus have seen the extra heading : BODY

hahah and nowww. i haven even printed out the stuff that i need to show her on monday. how i wish my v day present is a printer. ahhahaa. oh ya. i got a present. ;)) though its overdued but yeah i like it. its a musical box. but i prefer that to be automatic rather than me having to manually turn the thing. hhaha. but its a nice creation for couple because the guys can help to turn it. hahaha. but it wont last forever? he cant be there forever to turn that thing for you. yup. so. but its a different feeling when you turn it yourself. its like, you will always get a surprise a new feeling because you never know what melody is coming up until you turn it diligently.

yeah yeah alright end of that musical topic.

im so worried for monday. lol. i wish i wish it can be a good one.

2008-02-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音

沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

14 feb - an ordinary day.

2008-02-14T14:54:00.028+08:00

cny part 2 - ready go!

2008-02-14T11:54:00.024+08:00

there are so many so many pictures to upload!!! honestly im so lazyyyy. but still, have nth better to do hahaha though today is valentine;s day! its jus like any other ordinary day for me lol its okie i alrd get used to it. haha. so lets see the pics!

cny part 1 - action!

he finally clicks with me, this cute naughtyy boy! see his fist? we were playing boxing before this pic was taken hahahahaha. opps i forgot to pose my fist too. hahaa.

this red this boyyy refused to take pic. de reason = he says its very troublesome! HAHA know why. because he has to think of the pose each time ahaha. de three little piglets of mine! :D

hahaa. my sis and me! ;D

finally we got to take a family picture haha but wheres brother?

haha here is he! he rocks!!!! keep rocking! =D

hahaa. we thought the lighting is better. ahha.

on de way. its boredd sometimes. even its cny haha.

i dunno hw to take a good pic. hahaa.

mum and i hahaa shes the angbao that day.

come on, don be shy!! haha!

okies she is posing hahaha.

she is laughing and at the same time trying to scare the freak out of me. hahaha. and that day i was on my little cousin's bicycle. imagine how small the bicycle can be. hahaha and i dun even know where should i put my legs!! hahaa so i got leg crumps at the end of the day. hahaah she loves me holding tightly to her HAHA. my cute little cousin rocks my day!

hahaa there she is. :D am i seeing things, she is wearing a dress!

and yeah! my super click cousin ah leng! =D she rocksss because shes so nice to talk to! and yeahhhh shes shorter than me ahha!

but her figure is better i admit haah!

there! my cute cute cute nephews!!! super hyper! the brother squeezed into the pic last minute ahhaah hes a nice darling!

so i requested to take another pic with him aahah!

they look alike right! but they are 2years in difference.!

xiao hei is getting old, so am i. =( hahaa.

its very hard to get him into picture. haha. that explained my lame pose haha.

2008-02-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

sighhhhh.

2008-02-05T11:03:00.000+08:00

was taken by my sis new camera haha

i can feel my actions slowing down haha been really tiredd. im like a zombie now hhaa sickening. after nafa went town with my sis the next day my whole body ached like mad! ahah but i didnt regret taking nafa for the last time. haa 15mins 2.4km. 10.9s for shutter run hahah these two were my best components. hahaha.

and im number 80!! hahaha. well to me im really happy! hahah! :D

hmm ya. korean food is nice! i suddenly fall in love with the kimchi soup and the sweet spicy chk! and i love cabbages because it is really sweet! :D bon appetite!

went K with ah ma hahah for solid 3hrs and we couldnt bear to leave the place. lol.

visited auntie yesterday i slept like i never sleep before. haha i couldnt even move even though my brain kept pushing me to pick up the call. i realized i was super duper t-i-r-e-d.

i could wake up in the middle of the night for a few times and that left me so lethargic the next day. and that was the reason .

gosh i dun wanna be a walking panda. and sometimes im so slow till i know im too slow. hahaha. shit man. i kept forgetting things because all i think is ~

i don wan tat to happen to me. whats happening to me. my sis said that i have changed. i become so fickle-minded and cant make decisions quickly. haha. shitman.

ya i should be more firm. hahah. wats happening to me! crazy i would never shop alone in town wondering around like a lost soul i would never wake up in the middle of the night because i need sleep badly i would never wait . but seriously i had been waiting for everybody i was meeting for the past few weeks.

so stop saying i don have patience alright haha .

i should get more things to do to occupy my time.

but the thing is i haven even finished my project which is gg to due next week.

how bad can i get . sigh.

I NEED TO FOCUS MORE!!!!! WAKE UP WAKE UP.
haha pls wake me up from the nightmare.

2008-02-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

我说了所有的谎

你全都相信

简单的我爱你

你却老不信

你书里的剧情我不想上演

因为我喜欢喜剧收尾

我试过完美放弃

的确很踏实

醒来了梦散了

你我都走散了

情歌的词何必押韵

就算我是k歌之王

也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了

也许是你怕了

我们的回忆没有皱折

你却用离开烫下句点

只能说我认了

你的不安得到你信任

我却得到你安慰的淘汰

2008-01-29T16:44:00.001+08:00

"someone once told me that the sun and the moon were once living happily together, and all other celestial bodies were envy of their devotions.

but years passed, and the sun got brighter and brighter while the moon stay dull.even thou the moon still loves the sun, but the moon start to get very insecure. and words started to spread from stars to stars, that the sun would be better off with another, instead of staying in this solar system with the moon.

but the sun pledge its love for the moon, for as long as it is burning.
but words are only words.

the sun soon received too much attention and lost its affection for the moon.
the moon couldn't possibly request the sun not to shine anymore, so the moon only realized that 2 of them belong to different world.

the day and the night.

and maybe, just maybe, this is why people only cry at night. "

was browsing through some blogs and this story caught my eye. haha. wow. really? sun and moon fall in love?

its quite sad when you only realized that actually you guys belong to diff world ya?

haha i don like the story because its a sad ending haha!

maybe the moon is always beside sun. jus that moon doesnt shine like how sun does? lol .

okies i jus have nth better to do argg. nightmare last night and it was super real. my heart was skipping very fast and the next moment i was awaken.

waking up in the middle of the night is crazy because i cant go back to slp until morning.

and the fan at my bro room is spoilt it cant oscilate so it keeps blowing at one direction so im COLD now! because its raining sickening but im too lazy to move around. haha die becoming like fattie.

finally meeting my godpa for dinner but im in stoning mood.

oh ya i ended my sip hahaa and yst was the 1st day of school. and my instinct was so right, i was the last to go. haha the best gift on the 1st day of sch. ~

actually im alrd lucky because got to see ah ma for a while and her friend was so helpful! she bought me up to my class at IT SCHOOL. hahaha my 1st time gg there for lessons so uh abit retard. hahaa. and got to eat chk cutlet with pj its very nice. ahhaha.

and yea got to lame and joke with jolyn! hhaa. ;)

saw ronald! haha happy seeing the familar faces again! ;))

2008-01-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

BOO. T-OWN! :D
with my bestie!!

and we saw YILONG AND FREN. hahaah saw that picture above? ah ma is looking at them! HHAHA. don jealous! jkjk! and that was laso the 1st time we took so many pics ya? HAHA. so you have more choices now!! hahahah pls don pick de most retard one! haha!

the outing ended with orange julius haha i like it! :D jus like wahts taste like! hahahhahaha jus kidding sounds so mushy hahaha.

and yeahhhhh i bought two tops and my fav shorts hahahah. :D
so happyyyy and yay SAW yilong! my 1-yr always meet up friend hahaha and its fun chatting laming in the train! hahahah and oh ya we scared off a uncle. hahahaha.

'EXCUSE ME!' he shouted at his direction.
it was about 11pm. ahhahah.

2008-01-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

hey there! ahhaha! K-atong! :D
a fruitful trip with good food, pool and shopping! hahah. okie la the shopping mall is quite bad. hahaha. don have the shopping feel! haha.

when we were bored at mac. hahaha. this was the 1st time we were so kuku! hahaha the top 9 pics! lol. pls rate hahah jkjk no thanks!

hahah okie that was my 1st time being so 'zi lian'. so ya i really look like idoit. haha. the blurred one is the best hahaha.

okies we were too bored so we played with the effects with peijiao's phone. hahaha. i like the sketch haha. cos pj looked like shes wearing spects. hahaha
it was fun because we got to eat play shop chat laugh like nobody's business. hahaha. i like katong outing with PEIJIAO!!! =D lets go again alright haha!

2008-01-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

i waited in vain. for half an hr.
i felt like vomiting my head was super giddy
i jus wanna go home

i fall down few days back and now its still painful
my eyes are forever dry and uncomfortable
i left with nothing with me

am i only someone you will look for when you are bored?

tell me its not true.

but its the fact ?

i always work when others take MC. so kept cover others work. can i complain?

seriously im physically mentally tired. luckily i didnt really show it.
met the retail lady she said i always look cheerful. really glad to hear that because i jus dun wanna show that i jus know hw to complain. like wat elfie once said.

i know th e world is unfair. but the feeling really .

the efforts i put in.

maybe nobody can see it.

i keep reminding myself, you know yourself don you?
yeah i jus couldnt control myself but to feel lousy.

. . . . i jus need a break.

ive

2008-01-19T18:56:00.000+08:00

been sick. arg. i knew this day will come. ahaa. because everyone around me is sick. and the weather is super sunny at sentosa. oh man. i need to get tan evenly. aha.

waste my 20dollars for the m c . sigh.

haha jumbo kept looking at me. cant see his eyes? hoho he got smaller eyes than pet. but hes cute ;D haha. lets see another pic of him.

i snapped it when he finally looked away. haha. i will miss you boy! (;

i like this scene. haha. sunshine after the rain. though the sun is setting down. haha.

on our way to hair cut last weekend. i regretted cutting my hair now it becomes so difficult to tie my hairrrrrr.

i like my sis's new top. nice? haha. alright she's my elder sis if you re gg to say shes my younger sis. she finally dyed her hair. haha. but 1 and half hr is abit too longgg.

i was forced to smile.

i was gg to doze off after 1 and half hr waitin time.

and yea. i regretted cutting my hair. ;( haha. nvm it will grow again right. hahaa.

been really stressed these few weeks. my eyes are so uncomfortable these days too. i guess its because of the long hrs of wearing contacts. yeah i know but i alrd tried not to wear it wehn travelling to work.

yups. after so long i finally got my break. Yesterday was really sunnyyyyy. i could feel my skin burning. and seriously the project assignment portfolio are driving me nuts. finally did the charts but thats not the end. got to finish the project by today.

sigh sigh. got lots to complain. haha. but now dunno why im stucked. ahhaa. i cant even remember what im gg to say.

thats bad.

oh ya why im blogging instead of doing projects, i was annoyed by my mum. argss. its very irritatingg toking to her for i dunno why. i mean i know why but i dunno why i feel that way. arg what am i saying. anyway. im avoiding conflict with her so here i am. sometimes i envy my friends . because they can get along with their family well. sometimes im angry at myself. for not trying. for throwing temper. for complaining. for not visitin my godparents who are genuinely worried about me. for thinking of him. for not taking things easy. for troubling my friends.

i really feel terrible. all the sickness jus came to me and i don even have time to react to it.

i know my spine is getting worse. i finally understand why ppl always say they know their health condition best. you know when its coming.

haha. becoming ah ma alrd? NOOO. it will become better after my attachment. im gg to play as hard as i can. actually i really dunno whether i should go uni. should i? i feel so confused sometimes. so what if i work hard and score well. wheres my direction. I dunno. i dunno.

efforts wasted? dunno. i know its better to get a degree. somehow in my mind i dun wan to face the same pressure again.

haha life is like that right. haha. alright stop thinking and do wahtever you can. trytrytry!

take things easier maybe things will get better. yeah. maybe ya?

I longed for a good laugh.

2008-01-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

HEAD BIG.
args. yaa.
i need to do something about it.

left only two weeks.
surveys, portfolio, surveys, project..

wowwwwwww omg. very head biggggg.g..g.g.g.g. okies i got to concentrate . focus.

sigh. . i know i have to do, but theres always a force which pull me back. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. hate it.

sometimes im so lost. dunno what to do. i know i shouldnt be like that.
but i jus cant control myself.

okies. i got to focus more next wk. . do whatever i can .

stressed.

c r e s t fallen

2008-01-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

another time. i dunno how many times. must i tell myself. its like a cycle. i keep moving forward and backward. so where am i. im still there.

i have to get ove r i t .

i deleted contact no. facebook whatever taht is connected. i wil become the ninja this time.

ill forget .

i -relax?

2008-01-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

hoho i wonder it can really work?
jus by putting the twist around your eye corner and it can make your eyes relax. hahaa hmmm.

i know my eyes brain body need rest but i have to do my project!! arg, due to the change, i have to work extra harder. and that project - i did taht from the scratch. no help no nothing. yeah.
right now, i cant think of de results because im like doing it step by step. and ya in my mind i know there are alot of things to be done. nvm, maybe i should jus crap my way through if theres lack of time. lol. no la.

anywayi need to be back to work.

picture of the day. :D they can hold flowers and hand them to each other! ending pose - Kiss!

back to school.

2008-01-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

haha. yea. my new lo is better and i cant imagine myself asking qns in class. HAHA. sometimes its werid when you are too serious because the people ard you arent even paying attention to the lesson. lol. but thinking of getting the reply late, i might as well ask on the spot.

super hungry now, nvm im gg to slp soon working tml! gosh. my eyes are still uncomfortable. sometimes my vision are blurred.

i realised i still cant teg revo mih.
hahaha. though i can do that for a moment, a minute, an hr or a few hours.

on top of the stress i faced from work and school work, i llits ssim mih.

oh ya i had japanese tori, chinese pork bun, korean sausage and green tea for my dinner. haha they re all nice but the 1st goes to the korean sausage. hahaa. okies my saliva is dripping nowwhen thinking of that. hahaha. yumyum.;)

shopping with kellyn is good because i always come home empty handed. HAHA. she will say not worth it. hahaha. yea man good for me. can save $$$. though i wanted to buy something, or alot of things. yea whenever im stressed or down i jus feel like buying something.

haha. but luckily whenever i say i wanna buy this and that, It turns out that i cant find anything that i wanna buy. lol i still have some logic though. how can i buy something i don like, thats wasting my moneyyyy away. i cant do that. lol.

yea. it rained and we were trapped in lido. gosh a super boring place to be at. so we went back taka. no choice. shopping became a walking exercise.

and i hope today i can slp well, cos i keep waking in the middle of the night for n-othing. sigh. wish me lucks. haha.

hello 2008

2008-01-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

haha. unknowingly 2008 has come! gawd what am i doing!

busy working working and yeah as the new year approaches attachment is going to end soon. hahah. mixed feelings.

actually i have not tot of what i want for 2008. seriously.

maybe i jus hope i can be happier! lol.

these few weeks have been a torture for me. i dunno whether i have changed. for the better?

how should i sum up 2007.

i regretted knowing some people. lol. negative right. but they really made my head super BIG. and feeling uneasy, bad, hurt and all those negatives you can think of.

yup. bike accident , once in a lifetime thing i guess. but i never thought i will have a chance to meet that. haha well it happened.

my 1st time wearing contact lens and seriously my eyes turn red often these few days! super uncomfortable alright.

my ears bleed every now and then. i mean not those serious cases haha.

hmmm. my 1st time going to a chinese physician without parents. haha. and 1st time in my life that i know chinese physician's skills KILLS! i screamed whenever he pressed me lol. and trust me when he pinched your ears you will fly up from your seat, its jus like you have touched something super hot.
hahaa. okies. and YA, ITS EXPENSIVE TO SEE CHINESE PHYSICIAN.

whats more. ya my 5 months at underwaterworld. its like wow so fast? i cant imagine me telling ppl i have worked there for like 4 mths plus. gawd. how did i survive that? to think that i will complain and complain to sock and all. but no the victims are ah ma and my sis. the most. hahha. but really i reduce my complainings alrd.

but thats not good though haha. contradicting.

and yeah i become friendlier. HAHA. i will smile at cleaner basically everyone. LOL. gosh!

and yeah my 1st time been to underwaterworld too. HAHA. man.

and yesh i got to know the divers and trainers. i still remember when i was young, I admired them! hahahahhaahaaaaa. now, its like. hmmm. somehow my bubble dreams jus burst.

lol! BUT STILL, i will miss the diversss LOL my eyecandies. HAHAAA shhhh.

and of cos of cos i will MISS the naughty RAYS, the touchpool 'kidos', the yellow and blue fishes and of cos the DOLPHINS. i don wan to take pics of them because im not gg to think of the days. HAHA. i'll rather be a guest if i wanna take a pic with them. lame right. but the feeling is diff. hahaa. i got numb after doing the demonstration with the dolphins and im no longer excited to see and touch them. it became a nightmare somehow. HAHA. not really la. i enjoyed watching them from far though. hahaha. they re cute when they popped their head and rest it on the stage. HHAAHA. and their hands which are never long enough to clap.

i don need to take photos of them because the memories of them etched in my head.

if one day i forgot, it means that it aint impt anyway. haaha.

hmmm. been really vexed about the people, project and all. PP. haha.
i need a break. :D
tml still got sch early! ARG> bring me an eyecandy tml! LOL. jkjk.

three six zero

2007-12-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

spin.
headache with allthe words spinning around my head. was doing research for my project and i couldnt find any statistic that i want.

yeahhhhh and i shouldnt have joined facebook. lol. i was playing the puzzle thing and my eyes were like super tired now. my patience has improved greatly lol. thats a good thing. i guess in the past i'll jus close the window if i cant solve the puzzle. haha. this time i din give up. haha.

also, i dun wan to know what he is doingggg. it jus. makes me feel worse.

and my stomach is having the same old problem again.
and i think i got to see the chinese physician soon sometimes i cant even balance myself properly.

therere so many things for me to do, theres no time for me to waste! jiayou!!!

walking into a new self

2007-12-28T12:33:00.000+08:00

haha i likethis picture because it somehow shows something that i feel. hahaa. if you know what i mean. hahhaa okie crap. i jus got a reply from my lo and he said hes gg to reply my qn on 31dec. hahahhaa i feel that its so funny because you can reply my email but not to my qns. lol. anyway i appreciate his reply at least he is not someone who jus cant be bothered to reply me.

yes so you know you will get it from me if you dont. haha. warning*

had a bad headache because i did crowd control for 130 and 330 show yst. seriously it was not very sunny but it was hot. my face was super red haha tahts what weiting said. and i look like im very hot thats what khad said. hahhaa. yesh so i look hot and red . i know i look sexy. hahaaaaaaaaa.

sometimes i wonder why ppl like to go suntanning. LOL its like. burning our skin. imagine lying there and get burnt. lol. okies thats waht i tot. hhaa.

and yesh yesterday was busybusy and messymessy crazycrazy. because some sg aunties who seem to be highly educated are reallyyyyy very irritatingggggggg their children are one of a kindddddd. omg. i wonder how they will be like when they grow olderrrr. right now, they can be so sarcastic and bitchy. mind you they are boysss.

yesh. nvm. its a good experience having to handle this kind of people. I JUS HOPE MY FUTURE HUSBAND 's MOTHER iS NOT LIK E HER.

some rich people jus turn me off. so what you have tons of moneyyy. basic understanding courtesy you don have? money jus cant push people down.

haha okies im jus complaining la..rich people can be nice too. i was jus unlucky to meet the baddies yst. hhaa. okies got to fly off now!

i think think think for nth,

2007-12-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

will nth ever think of me?

this suddenly popped out in my mind. yeah right, who will think about me? hahah. my tagboard is so rusty alrd. hahhaa. no la i don really care. lol.

actually i don wish to think but it jus came to my mind. hahaha involuntary actions. u know Bio always teach reflex action, when somebody hit you, you will react to it by hitting the person back. well, something like that.

hoho. i think ive improved, at least im willing to crap. gawd. i cant believe im crapping.

many things happened. yeah. about my school fees, i still have to settle it within this mth and yeah good news i had alrd tot of what to do. now, i jus need to do it. yeah, think think think no action is really nth.

i will do it. . i will face up to reality. this time. I learnt it the hard way, but at least i learnt it ya? lol. why am i blogging because my stomach is still uncomfortable. i guess its indigestion aagain.

sometimes somebody's face jus came to my mind all of a sudden. now i finally know why the show is like that; the female lead will mistake the bowl as the guy's face. yeah something like tt.
i know its drama but its like that. u know life is like a drama.

lol. watched de show, and here is the quote of the day, 'Life is like clouds, leaving no trace behind.' hmmm. agree? i don think so. i believe that it will leave a beautiful picture in people's heart.

hahaha. okies. its lame i know.

anyway i still feel that 'LIFE is like a rollercoaster ride.' hahaha. to me la. and seriously im very scared of the ride. i mean really THE RIDE. ahhaa. everytime i could feel my heart jumping out when it goes up HAHA. REALLY.

;) i will remember to smile. will i?

de final clash

2007-12-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

yups../

leos are stubborn creatures.

she knows its foolish.
but she jus wanna get herself clear.
so matter how hurt she feels
she jus wan to get the ans.

i know

2007-12-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

its very r-a-n-d-o-m .

but still. hahaa.

thisis the breakfast we have at tp hahaha im lovin' it. though its alrd 3 plus in the afternoon but still we enjoy our breakfast. ahhaa. with ah ma qiudan! :D yay we finally met up!

de boook she gave hahaha :D thanks thanks! (so you know which horoscope i am?)

hahaha. ta da this is my book. :D
lets take a closer look

yup hahaha. i love colours.

hohoho. strawberry. super strawberry.

my messy living room table cum study table. ;)

de kids are cuter than de peacock. haha.

shh. at work. hahaa. i was doing ushering suddenly i caught this sight.

deep inside me,

i feel uneasy.

but i know, it will go away one day.

anyway, its time to shop for chocolates :DD

end of the day

2007-12-22T22:30:00.001+08:00

what do we get?

hahaa random.
sigh. im tired. yes.

i need a breakaway. pls.

everyday waking up super early in the morning rushing fo rthe train monorail and bus. sometimes i jus hope my superman can be there hahah okie haven slp i alrd start dreaming. hahaha. i think everyone needs support. so ya, hahaah.

yeah. im mentally physically t-i-r-e-d having to work everyday and stressing my brain for the project work and ppl.

at work i try my best. youu know its tiring to try to do everything. i don mean only work. if u know what i mean.

hw i wish to go back to the past. is it bad to be dao? hahah its actually easier taht way. u don even have to look at others faces. u don even have to smile (den u wont get winkle easily). u don even have to entertain those werid creatures ard. ya. jus need to care abour uself and friends. thats it. period.

yesh, but the me now. i guess i cant be doing taht anymore. how sad. hhaa. anyway this is the path i chose. lol sounds so kuku. but seriously if i have a choice i might choose to be dao once again. lol. its not so tiring.

typing time

2007-12-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

yeah man been trying to wake upself up today.
im so t-i-r-e-d.

thinking of the portfolio and project jus makes my head big. ARG. and guess what there is construction gg on around ME. 1stly, it woke me up from my beauty sleep. 2ndly, it irritates me when im trying to type something!!! so if u dunno what i am typing, its all because of the noises created. I cant think properly with the drilling sounds and all. -.-' and i have no idea when i can finish my stuff. its making me so panic can. because SIP is ending SOONn. i don want it to end seriously because my project is not done. and know what, i finally know why my teacher don reply me. BEcause we have a change in LO. OH MY. I JUS KNEW THIS JUS NOW. pls kill me okies. I jus saw the comment he posted!!!! and thats like a few weeks ago? THATS WHEN I SENT THE EMAIL.

how stunnned can i get. hais.

and xmas is coming, i have to be faster than that!! because they wont be so free to reply me ya? who is so nice to reply me during their holidays. i cant blame anyone but my own stupidity. I should have seen the comment EARLIER. dumbo.

well at least i saw it. or else. i will really kill myself for not knowing we have a change of LO. and seriously i dunno he is but from de comment i appreciate his reply. hahaa. gawd i have to rethink of what to ask him.

right now, im feeling so messed up jus because of the portfolio. I need SOME HELP. im stucked.!

i need to do something about it.

alright after meeting ah ma yesterday, i finally got some idea of how i should do my project. BUT, whether its correct, i still have to ask. yeah. somehow i feel so lost. LOL. ive never been so lost. maybe because i dunno waht am i required to do. and time is kinda running out.

but i stil have to say, A BIG THANKYOU to ah ma qiudan because i sort of know what i am gg to say. AND THANKS FOR the horoscope book! hahahha i was really stunned when you bought for me lol. i think its the 1st thing that i remember you buying for me lols! so i will treasure it hahahaah thanks! :D

and dunno why these few days my eyes are so uncomfortable that its making me feeling uncomfortable upside down. haha. hai i dun feel like moving, but i have to go my auntie aka godma house soon. AND its raining. AND the noise keeps irritating me. AND i think im gg to end this lame entry. hohohos.

before we end; MOS collectables! :DD

yeahhey. chk and lettuce.

i can see that they don make good friends. hahaha. see their faces below.

;)

2007-12-18T12:47:00.000+08:00

hahah yeah went to watch chipmunks on sunday and guess what i couldnt withdraw my money!! so i have a treat from my friend. hahahhaa stunned me when i saw 'the amount exceeds your.....' on the screen. cant be! i chequed in on thurs. but the sec thought yes it can be because office people don work on weekends don they?

haha luckily someone was late so its easier to break the news to him lol!

and right now , i don feel like moving. lol. im still as tired as yesterday. theres a new girl and yeah shes attached to me. shes diff from the new girls we have. maybe because i can see that she is not that paiseh paiseh type. lol. and its great teaching her because i can tell shes willing to learn. hohos. and YEAH they say i sound like deejay from 933 when i was doing the commentary lol!! hahaha so happy! lol because i tot i sound like some kuku hoho.

and i was stunned when the diver suddenly came out of nowhere and stood infront of me hes so TALL. and he asked whether is he that scary anot. LOL. i jus think that he is a tower and he can knock me down any moment. hahahaa. of cos im jus 155cm excuse me.

haha and i was so embarassed la mel anyhow tell him taht i like him. CRAZY. ! but i think he wont be so stupid to believe her. HOPE HES SMART.

yeah man and i was stunned also that our manager suddenly became DM yesterday because i dunno she is DM for that day!! and the new girl was like, eh is she our manager? right infront of her. i was like, er yup. and i introduced her to our manager. hahaha shes the in-charge of Dms and gsos. you say leh.

and one interesting fact about her, she went INDIA for internship. hahha kinda diff huh. and i cant imagine myself walking on the roads full of animals like the horses, pigs elephants. and i heard that ppl there jus lie down and relax themselves on the road when there are cars and animals around. GAWD. accident proned. lol.

abit brain-less. lol. anyway back to sun, we went toy s raus ahaahaa and tahts my 1st time knowing that theres a salon for kids. hahahah so cute! :D but i think its a challenge to cut their hair because they keep moving around! hahaha and we went pet shop ahahahahaha they are so CUTE. :D and we saw one puppy eating another puppy's shit. yes not again after what the golden retrievers did that.

and i saw the hamsters fighting to play the merry go round toy and one hamster was trying hard to move clockwise and another hamster was trying to move anti clockwise. SO its not moving anyway because both were gg diff directions! lol! very funny! hahah i was like laughing and laughing abit brainless also. lol.

:DD fun day! :D

its been haunting me

2007-12-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

de reason why i don like to watch horror movies is because life can be a horror movie at times. and its been haunting me even during my sleep. i wanna learn to relax but sometimes the scenes jus kept repeating itself in my mind. . .

and i haven done my project ARG. i got the next next week off!!! YIPPEEE. thats a pleasant surprise. HAHAA. luckily i worked during deepa holiday if not i wont get off during xmas week! though i don celebrate that festival but its really a BREAK for me!

yeah! i got more time to do my project. im gg to drive the teachers mad. ahahhaa. who says i dunno driving?

hahaa. okie im trying to relax myself hahahaaa. yeah i like to watch Hk shows! some are inspiring, funny, touching and there is always a meaning from the show. thats why i like it. so im so happy to be off on sunday cos i can catch hk shows on scv, yeahhey! hahaha.

and YESH, i will be working morning shifts in uws next week hahahahaa. GOOD. though have to wake up early in the morning but i can go out after that!

andddd im so happy to have friends ard me! lol its been so long since we crap lame laugh in train! :D i guess everyone wil think we are mad. hahhaha but its so FUN. hahahahaa. :D

and i know good things will happen after bad things. SO COME ON, bad things faster come den good things can come faster! lol. okies its lame.

hahha. alot of things happened yst and they are really good learning experiences. :D
QIUTIN! you re getting stronger! yeahman. jiayou! hohos! hahaha.

and today shld be a happy day! :DD

seventy four

2007-12-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

yrs old is the age of my godpa yeah finally met up with him for dinner and seriously i dunno how i could eat all the FOOD (a plate of horfun and porkribs) up. my mum bought me chicken soup, taiwan sausage and my fav bean curd. my hands were cold and i didnt even know it until she told me. she said i need some tonics badly.

kept raining yesterday and i was all drenched since 1pm. of cos i didnt tell them or else they will start their di di di diam again.

hahaa. the didididiam story by ah ma qiudan.

yeah i was immuned to cold alrd i guess. after work, went shower and de water was cold. as usual, i didnt want my bag to be heavy so i didnt bring a towel. haha. sounds strange but i jus dun wan to add more weight to my back, since its alrd not well yet.

tot of that i haven gone for my appt at tpy. arg gotta find time haha. maybe on sunday. den after meet peijiao! hahaa its been so long since we met up!

i realised how little i can do for him. besides having dinner with him, sometimes going to the nearby ntuc with him i feel that theres really nth much i can do. and i even forgot he has problems with his eyes until he mentioned to me jus now. omg. how can i forget about it. and he has been skipping his checkups and all. i promised to take him to the doc. and i didnt even ask when is it.

but this time, i wont forget. i will keep pestering him until he goes for his medical checkup. he told me his vision is getting blur and his head hurts sometimes.

am really anxious.

he handed 20dollars to me and later passed another 20dollars to me because he thinks its not enough. i rejected but he pushed de money to me. i didnt say anything after that because i dunno what can i say.

don be so nice to me. i don deserve it.

the sky will lit up once again.

i wanna turn off my hp i wanna see how far i can go w/o it. i cant rely on anything but myself. maybe for now.

11 december

2007-12-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

i need to remind myself what is the date alrd.
yeps im stucked with the portfolio. no replies. is worse than anything.

anyway i got to think!! think!!

anyway i got to get some sleep 1st!
my brain juice is gg to be used up/

indigestion

2007-12-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

i guess im having indigestion.
haha. terrible. nvm will get better tml/

sometimes i dread work, because sometimes i even tot of work when im slping. ahhaa.. its bad. i know. i miss the times when i complain complain and complain to my friend after work or school.

and now, i have to take care of my eyes because i always wear my contacts for long hours. and thats why i cant meet up with friends until late at night. thats the disadvantage. im still paranoid, i think i still need some time to stop being that.

my stomach hurts almost every night.

i know i have been eating junk food. because i dun even wanna waste time thinking of what to do since lifes been not easy alrd.

I found the answer today.
thats it.

maybe its a good thing when you start facing up to reality. I gotta pull myself UP. haha.

I will start eating healthy food, slp early and visit my aunt.

going back to the life i had once.

well, time is the key now.
haha. Im STRONG.

the real smile will appear soon.

went out with tzehui today. wow its been so long since we met! gosh. ahhaa.
its very funny to hold an umbrella at TOWN. especially the person who carried the umbrella is tzehui. hes so TALL.

haha anyway today i had fun, though i felt guilty for not visiting them again.
I WILL MAKE TIME. really. this time.
wait till i get better. i will.

and yea i had great time shopping with him because we went quite alot of places hahah and there was not a single moment for awkward silence.

yeahhey. and honestly my mind drifted to elsewhere sometimes.

its great to have ppl talking to me updating me about their life. its great that i can share what is funny to them and they have something to say back. its great to have great food and great accompany. its great to forget about someone if its only for one moment. hohoho. i feel like gg jogging.

hahaa. random. anyway. I enjoyed today. A BIG THANKYOU if you are reading this, mud haha.

seven december

2007-12-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE KOON! :D

hahaha i know you wont be seeing this but yes im gg to wish you anyway! hohoho.! hope you can find a job that you really like. haha.

okies. i realised that blogging is sometimes a very kuku thing to do. lol. you cant vent your anger, cant express your true feelings sometimes and its the only thing you can do when u are BOREDD and you don wish to talk to anybody on this earth.

yeah. hahah SO WHY AM I BLOGGING. ahhahaa you should know the ans.
the hardest thing to do is to learn to let go. haha but i will learn.

i think i have indigestion or something, my stomach hurts every now and then. especially at night. i think i need to see the doc soon, i have been postponing the appt. and not to forget to visit aunt and ah pek soon.

sometimes its not that i don MISS you if i don meet you. I miss you guys all the time, its just that i didnt say. I hope my godparents will understand and i know they have been understanding and thats why i always feel guilty for not visiting them regularly. Sometimes i jus don wish to let them see me when im down. and when i try to pretend, i feel very tired. sometimes my mind will jus go blank and i can be really blur. lol nth seem to go through my mind. hahaha. plus there is nth to do there, so my brain don really needd to work.

hahaa. okie im crapping. complaining whatever you say. lol. get used to it. you will get used to it.
there is nobody at home now, thats a miracle somehow because my dad will come straight home after his work. and I DIN SEE HIM. for a moment i thought there are some robbers hiding in my room. LOL.

and seriously i became paranoid because of my mum's constant naggings about my contact LEns. i hate it. lol. i hate that me too.

and clar was nice to accompany me to optician hahaha yeahwoo. i knew a easier method of taking off the contacts. yeahman. and i realised how great is taht to solve the problem immediately rather than prolonging it.

and from jiemin i learnt to spend wisely LOL. and she is really nice to tok to la, can complain whatever you wan to her and can lame with her! hahaa. luckily gt her or else i might suffer from some kuku illness. LOL. CHOY.

hahaha. yea i jus hope that we can all work in harmony everyone is happy and then i will be happy. lol. yeahhh. nth else. :D
can we?

imm lettinggg go.

can i?

last look.

i hope i can block out everything that is in my mind

see the flag?

yes, SWIM HERE. hahaha. its like encouraging ppl to SWIM only there. haha.

i'd rather

2007-12-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

keep it in my heart. "

she insisted we take pictures

yourhair is not messy!

at MOS. hoho. ;)

i dunno where to place my hand. i seemed like a retard yesterday. lol

i hope this is better. HAHA. thou not much different BUT there is some difference lol

hymp.

camera mite!
SNAP SNAP. ;)

the colors of the seats <3

ourhp pouch. ;)

haha de joke of de day.

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hahahahhaa. okies. reminded me of the time when i asked the security, how do you find DM? he replied, you can find him using walkie talkie. LOL. what i meant was, how do you find his character. that was my 1st week at my workplace.

everything stops

2007-12-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

at 0000.

hoho. a big thankyou to kellyn n my sis they make my day today. haha. im lazy to say why. and yes sisters went shopping ahhaa Elfie i was complaining all the way to my sis.

hahah. and yes i saw ur blog lol
quite stunned and i look so fat in the pic oh gawd.

anyway complaining rocks because after that i will be okie and i will start laming. if you know me well should know that. hahaha. its okie because maybe im hard to understand.

nvm its okie, went town and saw some eyecandies yeahwoo. hahaha sounds like im so kuku lol jus kidding la im not that crazy over them actually. its jus to lighten up the atmosphere. HAHA.

the guys gave me two SNAPS hahhaha. bought the voucher hope my friend will like it. hahaha. it was the 1st time i made purchase there. i swear. finally bought something for her. hahaa. she is really nice to me la! hahaha. dunno who eh? DON TELL YOU. hahaha.

yups and as my sis was saying, we always buy something expensive for everyone except for our own. yeah man always like tt. hahha what to do.

yea have to eat bread and water for a week alrd i guess. hohos. yeah can lose weight. hahaha good good! and YEA i weighed myself today over there, YESH. it read 44. SO HAPPY!!! :D

yeawoo. finally lost some weight. hahahaa. and the guys there are so funny la kept entertaining us. hohos.

and yes, im still as down as ever. what to do, who ask me don grow up. sounds familar, someone keeps telling me that. ya, all my fault. who ask you guys don give me mushroom to eat! lol goodbye for now.!

tzehui! reading this? LETS GO OUT MAN. SMS ME!!! :D and ur blog seems abit alien to me with her blogs. lols.

2007-11-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

omg right now im feeling abit worried.my godpa jus called and asked about the company i used to work. gawd.
sickeninggggg

actually today was quite okies. yaa. haha. but quite embarrassed also. anyway its really sad that elfie is leaving.
anyway,

the picture of our shoes. haha. my shoes are dirty because he stepped on them.
town trip, sakae lunch cum dinner . :D it was supposed to be a fun day but i dunno whats got onto me i was unhappy.
i hope i can jus close my eyes for a moment

wheres our strawberry?
being thrown away by my mum! =(

the journey to work . raining.

last day with shakira on beachtram.;)

i found the signage very funny. who will jump off the tram?

Wedding dinner last night. hahha. yeah we did not get lost.

again i was sitting at a table full of ah peks and ah mas. haha.
we finally catch up the old times! hahah we are still de same as before!! :D i was glad. :D

:) wanna get married?

can i

2007-11-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

because i wanna know the answer so i sent the message. my heart was thumping and i went to bathe straight after that, dreading to know the answer.

i was abit relieved.

but it did not last long.

so what is it now, im still in the grey areas. im still at the same spot wherenookleft.

evael ro yats?

thesedays

2007-11-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

have been down in mood.

pretending to be alright i hate this me. at the end of the day im de liar lying to myself. tml going parkway, a place which i have not been since secondary school days. seriously i have phobia gg there. lol. isetan and all. anyway i have to put on a smile again tml. sometimes its tiring. and of cos i have to smile on sunday because im attending a wedding dinner. well anyway i will jus heck care everyone except entertaining my godpa. oh ya and of cos ruihuan, suddenly remembered is her brother's wedding. lol she was my lovely neighbour .

i still remember we used to play alot of games, teachers game, cooking time - she had a stove and refrigerator (i love cooking in the past because i don need to eat what i cook), barbie and ken (she got ken, thats why i love playing with her), polly pockets (omg her toys are better than mine of cos), and paperdoll (we love to be designers), lego (its quite boyish thats why we seldom play that), hahaa and i still remember her not eating the veggies but bottles of vitamins (i envied her that time because the pills seem as nice as sweets)

these memories, i will always take them with me. not to forget those times when we cried because we cant play with each other anymore. and those times we play silly games at the staircase making noise and shouting away. we rocks! hahaha and not to forget we are born on the same day though im older than her by 1 yr.

hahaa. and time passed so quickly, next moment her brother is getting married and im attending his wedding. omg. i still cant believe it.

and i hate to know im growing up.

haha. you know something, sometimes i wish i don remember things that well. until now, i can still remember the old times. good or bad, i ll always remember.

i still remember peifen saying, her heart might not take it thats why she cant jus play play with someone. if u know what i mean.
yea its easy to say, jus play play.

i might seem that i don bother, but deepinmyheart, i treasure all the memories. its jus that i keep them in my heart. i don express myfeelings that easily, in a way. if you know what i mean. lol its getting complicated? no, if u know me well enough. haha.

and, my hp got problem again!! because i tried to transfer files from hp to com. and guess what? i forgot to copy and paste.

i dunno whats got onto me.
i dunno how he does that.

amigiving itup.

a day where everything broke down

2007-11-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

yeas man! argggg. the moment i wanted to switch on the computer, there was something wrong. No POWER. yea good. thats not the end of it.

the next moment i opened up all the youtube files, no sound came from my speakers. thats the worse part because i cant even listen to music!! ARG and i alrd planned my evening!! to watch youtube and blog.

den there were errors on my friendster i cant view my profile!! and you guys also cant view mine. GREAT. nth to play.

went blogger, cant UPLOAD pics from blogger. so i took trouble by uploading them at photobucket. AND. i dun wish to transfer files from my hp anymore, it always spoils after i transfer to de computer.

yes. jus when i need all these, they broke down. good timing.

anyway. i love to complain? arg i also don wish to! hahaha. because there re alrd so much things that i cant mention. yeash. i guess thats the best way. ;)

hahaa actually im very glad that everyone works in harmony. im really happy. ;) i don wish to think of anything but to get along well with everyone.

yaa thats what i thought. sometimes some ppl jus made me roll eyes though i dunno hw to roll my eyes la. but you know what i mean/. haha. oh ya, i love xmas decorations ;)) they are NICE. especially at night and i like white xmas. basically everything la. Red xmas is nice laso hahaha. red xmas represents warmth and family-like. white represents romantic. hahaha. ;)

i saw these pics in someone's blog haha its nice!! so i couldnt control myself but to, haah.

i like white xmas!! ;D i hope my wedding place is decorated with these ;))

omg i love the tree!!!!

they caught my eyes when i stepped iinto town
santa claus is coming to town! hohoho! :D

i like them when they shine :) its beautiful

omg i like the hut. hahahaha. fairytale like dinner. ;)

which xmas do u like?

NEW :)

2007-11-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

hahah finally a new blogskin.changed the colors and all. hahaha. yeash its been so long since i edited html lol. my eyes becoming chk eyed all because of this.
hahaa but imm satisfied with my own work! :D

alright at ;least im happy. :)
for this moment.

2007-11-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

one moment,

GRINNING

another moment,
COMPLICATED

Yesterday i went shopping, where? NTUC. i cant believe myself walking alone in the aunty uncle family place after my work. i saw kids, that scene reminded me of me when i was a kid, just like them. And the little girl caught me in act. Yes, i was taking the pictures of the POPCORN containers, which are the onees you guys are seeing now.

She shouted to her mum, 'She is taking photos eh'. yaya, im taking pictures cant you see im already trying very hard to keep it as a secret. arg. im not mad, don worry. lol

alright end of story i bought Polky, its only 87cents omg i don even know it is so cheap until i saw it. I jus bought a polky at sentosa for $2? im gg to bang the wall myself.

and yes, next is cereal woo, it states there SLIM low fat, low everything and high in calcium and my dad was asking whether is that the food for ppl who wanna slim down. Because he saw a slim figure on the cover page.

yes den i bought sweet yes of cos because it is cheaper. and i will tak ethe pictures of them soon, im collecting the boxes! hoho and i love strawberry flavour, to think that i hate strawberry in the past. hahaha.

yea. its been so long since i stepped into NTUC and it is the 1st time i walked around alone and suddenly i felt im some adult buying those basic necessities. oh ya did i mention i buy HL milk too? and the moment my bro reached home, he told me he bought HL milk. wow. stunned.

my breakfast. strawberry flavour.

bus ride to work.

i dunno when it started and i wanna stop it. but i cant bare to stop it, thats the problem.

im mentally and physically t i r e d d .

i dunno how long i can last.

i put on makeup and a smile.

trying to remind myself to be strong.

i know it may sounds irrelevant. but yes, there are some connections, at least to me.

Appear to be good. but.

ya.
but we need to smile right? hahaha. it was so contradicting when i say things like this, 'hey why so sad! aiyo! don worry got me!!! hahhaha come i entertain you.'

super.

but seriously when i make someone happy, i feel happy too. :)

wehn im all alone again, i felt it again. its like that i guess. lol.

and now everything is still a mystery.

well anyway, today is the 1st time i tok so much with him haha. so embarassing when f a ris told him im scared of him. ARG. IM NOT.

alright, i shall see.

2007-11-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

it bled again ya. why everytime when im injured i don think of the injury myself and all but what and how my parents think.

damn they are driving me crazy. they always think i don think for them im always stubborn don listen to them. ya. if im a kid, i will or might listen to them. BUT im not a kid i know what i am doing. sometimes what they advise is jus. SO. _____.

arg.. and my mum pulled out the gauze along with my skin. i alrdtold her i can do it myself cos im the only one who can see it clearly.

I cursed and sweared.

i swear this is the 1st time i screamed and cried at the same time uncontrollably. yesh jus like a kid. I bet you gotta do that if someone gonna do it to you.

anyway i know im lousy.

i feel lousy now.

hah. anyway. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XINGXUAN, my dear friend! :D
hope that you remain happy all the time!
though not all the time la. but! most of the time hahaha.
red is his fav color. HAHA.
orange is sheril fav color. :DD

what is your fav color?

2007-11-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

oh yeah finally my off day is here ahhaha i think my off days are not enough i have so much to do! ahhaa like planning my schedule, sleeping, meeting up with friends, singing, chatting, daydreaming, visiting godparents, jogging and blogging! hhaa and of cos school work. arg.

thats the last thing that i wanna do. eeek.
lol. so today i freed myself from doing schoolwork.
NOOOO. i would rather sleep than do work. haha okies i know im bad influence to kids. haha where's the old qiutin! oh gawd. hahaha.

the superman returns - next off day.

haha yups im getting old la superman needs a break to refill the fuel before flying hahaa. crap. went to see the doctor and gawd im suffering from back pain since then. argss.

i jus hope everything will be fine once again hahaa and it will!

yup and i think november is simply not my month the day before my feet had a cut from the new slippers and i dunno whether its im unlucky or waht. how can it possibly cut my feettttt.

and last night the hook snapped and cut my hand. hahaha. good. all the bad things come and go at the same time. lol.

and yes i have to move myself to aunt house later for dinner. and finally im wearing my spects. hahaha it always got me panick when i failed to take them off after a few attempts.

haha. yups a day without contacts. good. haha.

and yep i have so much to say! got to know the acs people i cant deny that they are talented and knowledgeable. ahhahaha. its rare that i praise ppl. lol. no la. im nice. haha.

and they are weixiang, coeway and benedict! actually at 1st, i thought its quite hard to get along with them as they might be arrogant and they might jus roll their eyes if i say something stupid. and you know i always say something lame out of nowhere. hahaha. yup but after a while i realised they are actually easy to talk to! hahaha yeah and i learnt something from them too! benedict taught me de names of the sharks. hahahaa. and his thinking is matured though he is only 16. yaa and somehow i learnt that actually we do not need to complicate things. we shld look at things more simply. hahaha. yup.

the 1st time i worked with him - 3rd shift ahaha he was transferred back from DL cos there was a shortage of manpower hahaha and we RAN after eating the leftovers after closing the ray pool. hahahaa. and we RAN again to catch the harbourfront bus. LOL

yesterday we were both transferred back to DL and back to UWS again to close the ray pool. HAHA. and it was fun! :D i like teh fish and chips. and yeah! finally saw SHERIL. hahahaha. u reading this? LOL. yeahhh but we only chatted a while cos we only had little time and i was alrd very tired ahhaha. but yesterday was a great day! :D

and he is easygoing la everything is okie to him. and he is always paiseh when melody starts praising him ahhahahahaa.

and weixiang - magician. hahaha. and its really exciting to watch him do the magic hahahaa. its fun! especially when i know hw he did that. hahaha. :D and yesh i like the poker card tricks hahaha its amazing. SUGOI desu ne. haha. and yes guys shld learn magic tricks as it worked on some girls. hahaha

and coeway is a nice guy la i still remembered the guest asking which is the stingray and me and weixiang were liek, -.-'' laughing.
and he returned and say we are so MEAN. hahahahaha.yeah yea i can say hes nice la. hahaha. and he gt splashed by the stingrays.

and i still remembered one boy was splashed by the rays hahaha he was wearing spects. he is so cute la!! so small wear spects alrd ahahha.

i love kids. and i hate kids when i was doing crowd control. lol. i hate crowd control. hahah. seriously im not cut out to be a security guard. im borned to serve. and to create joy for the people.! lol. sounds so lame. well. haha.

i jus hope to save more energy to serve ppl better. LOL. maintain the smile, not to hurry and serve them well. yes. it gt into my brain when he told me that. and i cant lose my cool!

hahaha
something taht bothered me.
but then again. i think its better to keep it within myself.

2007-11-08T15:06:00.000+08:00

i guess its time to really grow up lol i need to overcome the fear.
yups. i want to have a new goal in life. ahhaha. i know it will be quite stressful, but i know that i cant jus stucked here. i cantt. and i dun wish to. yes the day will come and i will run with all my might. jiayou!

i shldnt forget what my teacher said to me after my Os, i can excel in anything as im determined! yesh, its been quite long sincce i recalled this sentence. the old self.

planning is really impt lol i cant remember when did i start to hate planning. ahaha. yup. i shall do that right after i get my schedule book. hahhaha. sounds abit wrong hahahaa.

but the idea is there lol. im still not reallu confident, but! i know i can do it! time will tell! aja aja fighting!

support me!! :DD

2007-11-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha my contacts are always very dry after work arg i think hurt my eyes when i take them off. args. waht to do. my eyes are too tiredd. and i cant open it wide sometimes. LOL.

yeah. and i think thats something wrong with my digestion also LOL. sounds like im having so many problems! lol .

whenever i look at my wound after shower, i felt disgusted. yup.s haha. i tried not to but it really looks ulgy. im alrd not pretty!! hahaha.

but if ppl say its disgusting i will like, no laa. its not, its recovering soon.

lol. and i really appreciated some of the auntie's care and concern at my workplace. hahaha i can see they are really concerned .

alright gtg now my bro need to use the com ARG.

2007-11-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

ARG. okies im back complaining. hahaha. okies maybe i shld start with something light. hahaha

went bugis temple to pray seriously i think my attitude was quite lousy because i felt irritated the whole day. ALL BECAUSE OF THE PROJECT IN SCHOOL.

and i seriously dunno why we need to do it during attachment. arg i guess i prefer working.

yups hahaa. called aunt that i wouldnt be gg. seriously i have no mood to go there because of my injuries and all. and mostly i dun wanna show her my bad attitude. im always the angel you see.

yea haha. but im okies after the dinner i guess. hahahaha. IM JUS HUNGRY I GUESS. yeahhh. i love the satay. hahaha ;)) very nice i heard from my mum that ppl always buy 50 satays at one shot. ooo. cool. hahaha. one person 10 sticks! imagine that!

yup and i ate the satay at my workplace there. seriously i hate the garlic. it stinksssss. hahahaha. and i hate cucumberss because they are so bitter.

and the satays are fried not bbq. stunned? i was.

hahaha but de smell made me have the appetite to eat ;)

oh gawd im alrd thinking what to eat tml. limited choices. but still its a very difficult decision, because some really taste horrible.

buy me food! :D oh ya maybe i should go subway!!!! hahahhahaha. at least better? lol! yeah! but. arg im lazy. HAHA. i need plenty of rest i guess. 3rd shift tml. need to close the ray pool again. hahah but luckily i closed for quite alot of times alrd. so i knew the techniques alrd. :D

yeash and after that went home. hahaha yeah. glad that my brother drives so i don need to walk. omg im getting fatter la. hahaha a i missed the time after my stomach flu. i was thinner. hahahaa.

andd yesh. i guess thats life. we have to face it no matter what. hahah. if you know what i mean. yups. and i have to run with all my might! :D

i need to relax or else i cant perform when im stressed. hahaha. yups. but i also believe in the creation of diamonds under great pressure. well, i jus need to balance both. its difficult but i ll try. time will tell. :D

lend me your support friends! i need them badly. hahaha. MEET ME. its been so long since i seen you guys. haha.

alright i know i will be fine. :DD jiayou!

ending post
- me and my sis! :D

2007-11-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

hey im back lol felt so unfamilar suddenly hahah i wanna change a blogskin but cant find a good wan. hahah . yupsss. been really busy.

and straight after stomach flu i gt blisterssss. and it was so difficult to walk until i was late for work!!! it bled all the way to my workplace. yuppppp so unluckyyy cos i couldnt catch the bus and i saw it going away from my sight. =.=/ sickening i shld have RAN.

alright after that i was injureddd. yup.
for more details pls dial my handphone no.
ahhhaa im feeling better now. =)
but seriously it hurts even wehn i am doing nothing.
moreover after that fateful night, i went to work. 3rd shift. have to close the raypool and end work at 9pm. and damn my wound opened up again. it started bleeding and i guess thats why it couldnt recover.
i did 3rd shift 3 times after that. how good is that.
and that 3rd shift, i worked at DL. great.
i couldnt enter the water and somehow i felt so useless and helpless.

i didnt take mc, partly because iim worried that no one can take over me. partly is because i had alrd taken 2.

yups i was tolerating the pain all the while. no joke when i was closing the ray pool. lol. and i love the stairs. LOL. but the worse thing is to SHOWER. args.

and i love the yellow iodine. lol. my skin was BURNING.

hahah. okies great. i survived. =D and here am i typing my complaints. hahahah. yups it somehow served as a complaint center.

args. alot of things to say. but. haha. hmm somehow the blog doesnt belong to me anymore. it seems like a. ____ _____alright pls let your imagination goes wild.

hahaha. anyway i was grateful to asnul as he was really nice to apply the medicine for me. yup. (; thanks!

yups. and this will be the last time i will get injured. because it really made me cry when the iodine was put on.

ahha there are many things left unsaid. all kinds of emotions. its hard to say it over here. hmmm. but i was really touched. somehow.

haha. okies nvm. i told u this blog somehow doesnt belong to me.

2007-10-23T11:14:00.000+08:00

sentosa. :) dolphin lagoon.

haha jus read through sock's blog and saw my comment to her, "hey hmm there are alot of times when we cant choose what we love to do..but we can try to love what we are doing yeah? hahah miracles happen! but have to put in efforts too! jiayou eh! "

i guess i have to remind myself that. LOL.

yea i almost forgot how to think positive when im alone, SERIOUS. hahahaa. thats why i need ppl around me yeah.

hahaha there are too much rubbish in my head that i need to get rid of. i hate waking up in the middle of the night for nothing. I have gotten used to checking my hp halfway through my sleep. this is madness.

but luckily not always. it only happened once a while.

arg. yups.

there are so many things that are bothering me and they are accumulating like a hill.

haa.

i dunno whether is my stomach flu coming back.

they say stress might be one of the reasons why we get stomach flu. wellssss lols i hope NOT. hahaha. i got to be positive ya? lol!

and service line rank no. 2 in depression list. wow. hahaha. NO!

alright alright stop scaring you guys my fellow coursemates. hahaha.

no1. is the doctors and nurses. hahah. its quite unfair because they are nice people. why do nice ppl get all de shit? hahahs

i cant let my emotions take over me. i have to be more logical. haha. i cant be influenced by the ppl around me and accept things that i might regret in the future. dunno what i mean? that serves the purpose. haha.

i guess right now i need more friends. listening ears.

pls entertain me! hahah i will appreciate it.

yups. luckily yesterday we have ernest and melody yups its really fun working with them. hahah (; i know my luck is coming back after the stomach flu.

hahaha. i guess right now. i only wish to meet ppl who can bring joy to me. lols the rest, maybe i should jus ignore them. lol. its really a tiring job to do taht 24/7.

so now i mus know my stand. hohos.

i need to practise the two commentary~~~~ yeah man. reminded me of presentation in schools. well.

and yesterday i was really happy that i actually helped during the swim program! yeahwoo. the little kid was afraid of the waters instead of the dolphins. and yeah he actually told me his fears!! he said he can swim better without lifejacket and thats the reason why he felt so insecured because he was wearing the lifejacket. LOL. yupss and i told him about the dolphins we have there and that made him interested in getting close to them.

AND YESH. he did it. he overcame his fear and de next moment he is in the waters with the dolphin. (;

i smiled :) when i saw him playing with the dolphins happily.

claps* for his courage. =D

2007-10-16T14:47:00.000+08:00

de day before yesterday. which is? lol.

dunno why i have the habit of taking pics of the sky before i left my house hahaha. yups this is one of them. its not very nice though and it is saying that i will face challenges that day. yesh. i faced shit that day at Dl.

bus ride to work. so sunnnnyyy!

well. what can i say. lol. anyway im jus glad i only have to work 1 day at dl this wk. YESH. HOORAY. hahahahhaa. learnt alot. a really exciting experience for me. lol.
alone fighting the evils. but still i was glad that at least there are two kind souls that day. * appreciated de car ride.

after taht went Lemongrass for dinner. oh my the soup is reallyyyy appetising! and i love the chk the most. lolsss its very nice and tender. juicy LOL. yupss. but seriously my stomach cant take it. really felt terrible taht night. LOL. haven recover i guess. lol.

yesterdayy!
the sentosa bus ride. i was feeling sicky. and i didnt have breakfastttt. too rush too furious. lol. yups kukus me went to work at 830am whereby i should be working at 12pm. -.-' SO in the end i worked full shift. hahaha. well it was great though because the ppl at uws were great. lolss.! and i suddenly like uws again!! haha! (;
its no longer that boredd. my passion returns. hahaha yeahhoooo.

and yesh i love feeding and teaching them hw to feed the stingraysss!! (;
they are cute. lol. i cant imagine myself that im so smart. lols! i can teach kids who are afraid to feed the stingrays! yeah! i made them feel exccited in feeding them.! hahaha yeah! (; felt so happy that they finally overcame the phobia and feed them. yeahoo. they are brave kids.

there was a kid who cried because he couldnt touch any fishes at the touchpool. i even scolded him for taking the starfish out of the water beforehand. guilty*
so i went forward and teach him to touch the fishes. and i even attempt to carry him because his hands are too short to touch them. i failed, and his father came to help. in the end he touched the bamboo shark. hehe. he smiledddd very widely with his white teeth. hahaha. his parents smiled and thanked me and at that moment i was so glad that i did help. lol. (; de best reward i can ever get. i guess thats what service is all about. (;

they are so nice to leave chocolates for me!! they said its 5dollars per piece wow. i have eaten $20 of it. lol.! and its really nice!! and melody is so nice to buy sushi for meeee!!!! hhahaha i was so touched* salmon and unagi!

2007-10-16T14:37:00.001+08:00

MOS night. haha.

hahaha me and peijiao!!! hahaha MOS.burger. met up at bugis after my work and she saw Edward again lols! fate brought them together hahaha and peijiao helped me buy the burger w.o onions. lolss i was too tiredd to walk! hahaha. visited geradine at work and yeah! she bought a pair of shoess haha it was quite nicee!! yups actually that day i haven recover from my stomach flu lols! but still i enjoyed that day!! laughters filled*
haha my sis and i. de pic is quite long ago! hhaha. went cine and we had wonton mee! yesh and now we are the strongest persons! hahahaha.! One tonne mee. if you get what i meant. lol.

2007-10-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

A day with ah ma(;

bus ride hahah blue-ys

forever 21 hahaha. exciting!

hahaha i jus wanna take the pic of the outfit haha

dinner @ cine basement the meat taste like satay lols!

yeaaaa but its actually a sandwich!

hahha i enjoyed that day!! (;

but after that day, i got stomach flu!!! lols! its like a combination of all illnesses. 1stly, i got stomachache den i got headache! i tot its most probably due to the hot weather that fateful day. anddd slowly i got backache! and i felt so coldddd. chills is what the doc said.

yups and i think i was very strong because i continued working at DL!

and i helped out in the last interaction session. woohoo. (; i think i have grown strongerr.! lol. its all in the mind.!

after that seriously i was so weak until i don even want to get up from the car seat. ahah im so fortunate to have my good brotherrr! he;s the best lols.!

yups. and i dunno why i still think of him when i was feeling so terrible. well, it adds on to the pain i was sufferring.

hohos. so stomach flu is indeed the worse illness. and i felt like vomitingggg lol. i dread eating the pink tabletssss tahts the worst case scenario because it made me puke! i cant swallow it but to chop them up and drink them with water. hw bad is that . :(

yups so after one day, i stopped eating all the medicine. lols! i asked the doc, what if i dun see a doc even when im having 39degrees fever, she said its okie because the body will fight the sickness for you. the pills jus help to ease the pain. lol. okiess. very good. so i can save up my money!!! yeah haha!

i actually dun wanna see a doc because i dun wanna spend this kinda money but i need a MC badly. so ya. lols.

im lucky to have some friends on msn hahah like junting and darren. or else i can be boredddd to death. you know im still thinkin gof gg out on that day.!

i guess i cant face boredom. lol. (; so surprise me!!! haha!

i have learnt taht no matter how terrible i feel, i have to maintain my smile when im working. thats the spirit. lol!

i have gone up to another level lols! jkjk!

2007-10-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

the picture i took before leaving my house..dinner with ah pek and finallyvisited auntie this evening.

if fate never came we wont end up this way..if there was no exams if there was no funeral . maybe we wont end up like this.

"Jenny"

She calls me baby
then she wont call me
says she adores me
and then ignores me
(Jenny, What's the problem?)

She keeps her distance
and sits on fences
puts up resistance
and builds defenses
(Jenny, Whats the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

She needs her own space
she's playing mind games
ends up at my place
saying that she's changed
(Jenny, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
Jenny

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

It's killing me

Jenny

i listen to this song that you put on your msn. i know i shouldnt have seen the lyrics but i jus cant control myself. i still have the impulse to run towards you with all my might. so now i got a better idea of how you feel.

why would us end up this way. i know i shouldnt have talked to you on msn. i should have known it all. i should have gotten all the hints. but stupidly i hope i din catch them. we feel like strangers.

i listen to this song repeatedly and try to feel how u feel inside.

de lyrics are so familar.

i dunno why it hurts so much.

now i dun even know what to do. pls tell me.

if you see this post. but i guess, you don even know my blog add

im backkkk!! =D

2007-10-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

hey! hahaha im back! stunned? haha i guess its time that i return to blogspot because wretch's skins are all very dull! lolss! quite a stupid reason though hahah. as feelings change, so do my blogskin. hahah. yups. so its quite an important factor!

hoho. yups i need a change. hahah. its been donkey years since i browsed through blogskins hahaa and seriously i wanna vomit this time round maybe im not used to scrolling it already haha. i can browse through hundreds skins w/o complaints in the past. hahah. how time flies.

im quite reluctant to change back to blogspot lol. like sometimes you have to make a decision even though u are reluctant. well, we have to move on. hah. yups. but that doesnt mean i'll forget everything i left behind.

uh i suddenly have the interest in reading. lols! i haven borrowed any yet. hahah. maybe its time to pay the charges taht were incurred during my secondary school days.

fines were incurred as one of my friends lost the book. arg. im so unlucky! and im haunted by my sis as it was her library card. lols!

oh toking about storybooks i don even know i can read those small prints now. hahaha. and its been so long since i last entered the library. hahah. its time i do other things now.

hahaa. thinking of the portfolio jus make my head become bigger. haha. okies i shall put it aside 1st. i guess i have no energy for that right now. hoho. and its been quite some time since i visited auntie. arh. i will find time but not now. hah.

i have to keep my mind occupied.

i would wake up in the middle of the night for i-dunno-why. this lasted for a few days and it totally make me feel so weak. enough of that. the contact lens are making my eyes so dry! and the work made me exhausted at the end of the day, both emotionally and physically. well i cant say the details here. lols!

yupss. i have to be stronger!! woots. aunty melody said im a strong, sensible and cool girl. lols! i asked why im cool, she said because i don really bother about what others said. LOL. serious? i seriously hope i am doing so. hahaha. yeah. ;D i really dun wanna bother about what otehrs say.

lols. okies great . i shall maintain this way. STRONG. hahaha. CHEERFUL. its hard to maintain the spirit. but i have to.!

tahts why i really need my friends!!! to make me laugh! yeah! its really tiring to do a one-man show.

yeah and its been so long since i stayed infront of the computer. hahah reminded me of those days, where i would edit the blogskin the whole day. im a perfectionist you see. hahaha. luckily im not a designer or else i cant make any money because i guess i will take elephant years to complete the work.

yups thinking of designing peijiao and tzeye came to my mind. recently me and pj had been toking about designing and our career path. haha abit head big. lols! i don wanna think of taht yet. haha..

scrolling down the song list i seriously find that there are so little nice songs these days. lols/
and tv shows. getting boring except maybe the channel 8 9pm show. haha. luckily i have scv! hahaha.

oh ya one colleague said i sound like a news reporter when i did the commentary!!! :D yeah!! hahahah i wanna be a news reporter in the past hahaha. okies im daydreaming. hahaha i wannan be deejay! but i think its not really a job for life..because you have to sit infront of the mike and talk to yourself the whole day!! oh my. haha i read that from one of the ex-deejay.

hohos. yea pros and cons. hahaa. maybe i might become a tour guide someday!!! hahaha.! =D

okies i haven woken up from my sleep. ahhaa. though im tired i really cant slp. haha. sickening.

i think i should go running soon! hahaha getting fatter...but the duty manager (DM) said i seemed that i have lost few kilos. wow. ahhahaha den i will be very happy. lol.

alright i shall start planning my schedule soon! . jiayou!!.

2007-03-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

hey guys!! i have changed to wretch. hahah (((;
but this blog will serve as a memory ((;

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/orangesodaa
MOVED.!

2007-03-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

The sharing of marriage ((;

The old man placed order for one hamburger, French fries and a drink.

He unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully cut it in half, placing one half in front of his wife.

He then carefully counted out the French fries, dividing them into two piles and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife.

He took a sip of the drink, his wife took a sip and then set the cup down between them. As he began to eat his few bites of hamburger, the people around them were looking over and whispering.

Obviously they were thinking, "That poor old couple - all they can afford is one meal for the two of them."

As the man began to eat his fries a young man came to the table and politely offered to buy another meal for the old couple. The old man said, they were just fine - they were used to sharing everything.

People closer to the table noticed the little old lady hadn't eaten a bite. She sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally taking turns sipping the drink.

Again, the young man came over and begged them to let him buy another meal for them. This time the old woman said "No, thank you, we are used to sharing everything."

Finally, as the old man finished and was wiping his face neatly with the napkin, the young man again came over to the little old lady who had yet to eat a single bite of food and asked "What is it you are waiting for?"

She answered

(Continue below - This is great)

"THE TEETH."

LOL. i found this little story loving and funny at the same time hahhaha.

was reading my mails jus now. yea its been so long since i read any mail. hahaha. because emails jus reminded me of projects and schwork. STRESS.

hahaha yeas. and i saw this:

1. Why did I want to join FO in the first place? 2. Who am I in this camp? A GL? Or am I just one of the participants? 3. Have I reached that level required to be a GL whom the participants will look up to and aspire to be one day? What should I do to reach that standard? 4. Do I LOVE TP enough to give my 100% and more for all the 6 days?

hmmmm. i really feel the pressure rising.

im stucked at the 1st qn.

when i read even more.

my confidence dropped to the max.

maybe i shouldnt go for FOC.

i dun even know what is the level required to be a GL? do i? i never thought they will look up to me one day. do i love TP enough? oh god. im not even thinking of all these qns.

i cant even remember why i joined OTC.

but i know. i feel really great when i was a SL. although i was quite blur~~ because i led the class alone. and that was the 1st time i led a class.

maybe i shouldnt go for FOC. i saw many ppl with more passion than me. but couldnt us the ordinary ppl be given a chance to build up the passion? somehow. i feel. FOC is not only for those ppl who are really sure that they LOVE tp.

turn it another way round. why cant foc be a stepping stone for us to love tp more than what we think we can?

okies~ hahaha. i have no position to say anything since i dun even know what is the level to be a GL? haha~~~ maybe im the only one who dun know about it. lols. anyway. i jus know that everyone should enjoy as much as they can during foc.

lols okies enough of that maybe im jus not suitable to be a GL.

and to think i have tot of the games for the camp. LOL. i cant even answer the qns above can i?

crapping time. hahah.

2007-03-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

haha i think im getting friday blues. haha. no la. simply because i have no idea what to do today. or i simply do not have any clues why am i still the same after so many badminton sessions. ahhaha! omg why!! haha!.

i think im getting even fatter hahah! sad case. hahaha. and i dunno why im feeling so slpy these days even though i have no work now~ except giving tuition haha omg her exams are coming!! so fast so furious man! and i really think that we simply have no time to waste.

hahah. and i will be having six days of camp!. SIX. hahah. i dun even know whether i have enough shorts for me to bring to the camp. ahhahah. spare me some shorts! haah! jkjk

and what irritates me everyday is i wake up almost as early as the time when i have to go to sch!!! omg i cant believe that. and my dad will come nagging at me.

few things that irritate me"
1) getting nagged. 'keep the bed' 'wash the plates' 'change your clothes'
sians. hahah. my daily routine.

2) this kuku 'SECURITY ALERT' keeps poping out from nowhere. I CLOSED THE WINDOW and it came poping up again after one sec. so now im getting smarter i jus leave the kuku window on the other side of the screen though i can see the irritating screen now.

3) some songs in the player are jus too old and unpleasant to listen and i have to change it now and then. why cant every song be nice!! lols okies im complaining about useless stuff.

4) i jus cant get thinner ~~ LOL

5) i feel slpy but i really wanna get a life out of the holidays

6) days passed quickly and i haven really enjoyed my holidays!!

hahaha okies im trying to make it to no. 10 but i guess thats enough. hahaha.

went badminton with socky again yesterday!! hahaha. omg. and we had fun playing the 'hai dai ar hai dai' game. hahahah. and the best part was the forfeit. woohoo!! hahahah!. ((;

i was asked to run between the chairs. hahaha. which were near the grp of teenagers. ahhahah. okiess. maybe to you it seemed like nth but to us we were enjoying it veyr much. hahahah laughing at simply anything nt funny. hahah~~~~ thats when you 'clicked it off' hahahaha.

yeas. and we don care whether we acted like kukus or what we simply enjoyed it. hahaha.

hahah. finally got to read some novels in this holidays (what i wanna do during the sch days). hahah yeas. finished reading a book yeas!! haha! ((;

i really dread work and camps. ahhahah!. or simply anything stressful. but come to think of it, it might be something good too. hahah. maybe they might turn out interesting than what ive been doing lately. ahhaha. hope so. pray.! i really cant stand boring camps!!! and boring camp mates!! or maybe boring me. haha. when i jus cant click with anybody. hahah. SL camp really turned me off last yr. haha. =x

and it really caused me to have phobia towards the future camps. hahah. but otc was not bad and i got to know many good friends. (;

haha. yeas. okiess. hahah. anyway there are alot of things in this world taht we don like to do but. we still have to do it. haha. so lets jus face it and try our v best! maybe things will work it out themselves! hahahah! ((;

paperlove

2007-03-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
hhaa very slpy and bored now waitin for my hair to be dry so that i can catch some sleep before my brother comes back with dinner. hahah. slept quite late last night and i was awaken by the noise made by my bro and sis this morning!! idiot!!! haha!

every morning 6am woke me up. hahah. okie la not 6am. but very early!! omg. yea lors wanna sleep longer also cannot ahha sickening eh. hahah.

actually was quite happy to receive the call from recruit strategy because i thought everyone of us was selected to the second interview again. but this time its only shihui and i. omg scary!!

seriously im abit nervous. roleplay. not my forte!!
yea im afraid im too slpy that my brain jus stucked halfway!! scary scary haha.

anyway the job is not for this holidays. its jus an on-off job. yeas. so since everyone is trying out so i thought maybe i should give it a try too. haha. okies hope tml can meet up with some friends before getting there. haha. kuku friends keep my energy level up!! and then i can crap more!!

hahah. yea(;
read some blogs. haha. since i have so much spare time.
hahah everyone has their own activities and new goals & targets. wow haha.

haha okies this post is simply crap la huh. hahaha. cos im simply too boredd!! and slpy. hahah!.
anyway badmintoning is fun!! (;

ALP " (;

2007-03-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

heyhey! omg im dead tired!! hahaha but i cant slp`~ cos im too full! hahaha!
yeas. went for adventure learning programme omg it was fun!! hahaha yea the duration was jus nice because my battery will die down after 1pm hahah!

yea was telling qiudan and munsan about alp on the bus ride to orchard. hahaha.
at 1st we played energiser!! haha! it was fun! haha! something like catching. hahaha. yeas we almost gt caught ---- this was the most exciting part!! hahah!. yea thrilling. hahaha.

haha but in the end it was those who didnt get caught who needed to do forfeit!! OMG. stunned hahaha. made us run like mad haha! but i was fun!!

yea den the next fun game is parachute blow wind blow hahaa. (;
i always had to run~~~!!! hahah almost every item they said I HAVE!!! haha yea and at 1st i really use all my energy to squeeze out from the parachute! hahaha. den they stunned hahah!

but at the back everyone was so strong!! and i jus couldnt escape their claws. hahahah.

It was a funny sight when the parachute jus flew away ahhahahahahhhahaha
and i was like laughing like mad. and i heard the instructors laughing aloud.
LOL.

yeas got to knwo quite a few of new faces. woohoo. hahaha. yea i realised malays are really friendly and lame and nice! hahaha!. yea i love to tok to malays haahh!!
okies la chinese also!! ahhaha!.

got to know *beep beep the road runner hahahahaha! he really looks like the bird!! hahah!. and huijoo my sub head! hahah! and me and khim were getting closer!! wheee (;
and alot more hahaha!! dunno why i can be so enthu this time. i mean im better in shape than in otc. hahaha. seriously. maybe the group is smaller thats why i found it easier and more comfortable to express my views. hahaha. and lame and crap. (;

tricia is a nice person to crap with ahhah! (;

yeas. and alot moree i jus cant remember hahaha too slpy (- hahah

okies. hmm what else. oh ya i represented grp ten to throw the aeroplane ahhahaha. i swear i dun even know hw to fold an aeroplane!!! so i anyhow throw hahaha hope its okie (;

hahaha. yea i jus love grp ten spirit. rar rar girls rocks! haahh!. they were so enthu get me going man! thanks alot! hahaha! encouragement is the key to a team!! i guess*

hahaha. so lets cheer for one another!! (;

they were screaming before i could speak a word. AHHA. so i kept laughing and laughing.. SO FUNNY. hahahah because they were so cute!!! hahaha like im a big idol or something.
hahahah.

we went for job interview at orchard. hahaha. phew the interviewer was friendly!!! thanks to qiudan my resume was sent!! (;

happy crapping with them today!!!!